Cerean Secrets

Sapphira

2007-07-29T14:13:00.000-07:00

Aurora's disappeared, Cadence is acting strange, Celeste is flipping out... So many things are going on and I have no idea how to fix any of it. Candence.... Somehow something led her to the very spot I took my last breath back in the war... Adam has no idea that was exactly where he found us, but he knows the place was bad. And he knows we had to get out of there.

Something is pulling at us. Someone has turned us all into puppets. We are at their mercy and we have no idea how to change it. Celeste has never had prophetic dreams before. It doesn't run in our blood line. Unless it is a side effect from her Vampiric Powers... But still... Her dreams... Aurora and Angel are both acting oddly. They ave both told me to keep Cadence away from Vergil but neither will tell me why...

This worries me...

But not as much as seeing Adam so worried about his brother lately... I sense saddness and anger in combination within him... I can't help but wonder how this will all pan out...

Sapphira: Vegas Baby! ^_^

2007-02-23T13:45:00.000-08:00

XD

Yeah, things had been tense back at home so I told Adam to pack his bags we were going on a trip. I had the best Valetine's gift planned for him. We went to Vegas were Adair and Aurora were already waiting in a small temple like place along with Iris and Silas. It was the exact same set up as when we were first married.

Yup, that's right, I am once again Mrs. Adam Hart, and I couldn't be happier! There is definitely no way I am letting go of him this time. ^_^

Adair: worry...

2007-01-16T08:59:00.000-08:00

I can't help but be concerned for my brother. I have seen so many things in my life, but the night of Angel and Orifiel's wedding was one of the worst I had seen in Adam. When he saw Sapphira with that bouquet...

I don't know... it just looked like he had given up on his life. He has placed so much blame on himself when everything had been completely out of his control. We all thought she was dead, none of us thought that she would return to us. She even accepted that he had remarried. She was ready to graciously step back and let him have his new life. It pained her, but she was willing to let him go.

I thought Adam would be okay as long as he still had her friendship. At first, I think he was okay with it... but when she caught tht bouquet it was like a ton of bricks hit him and he realized that meant one day she, too, would have to move forward and take another as her partner in life. I think that's when he realized he couldn't do it... He couldn't have her for just a friend. She allowed him to be completely free and be the kind of person he was, never holding him back... and yes, from what i hear that includes in the bedroom -.-" ... He was always afraid he'd hurt Kaida- but he knew he wouldn't with Sapphira... a sense of comfort I guess...

He would hardly talk to me. All he said was he wanted her back. It's all he would tell me. But for that to happen he has to tell Kaida. And he doesn't want to hurt her either...

He was kidnapped at one point and placed under a spell... As was Sapphira...
We had to fight each other, which was hard. We got him and his sons back home when they suddenly collapsed. He woke and asked about Sapphira. It was then we first learned she had been dragged into that kidnap situation. He was silent when he realized he made it back with his sns, but she was missing. Quieter still when he realized he couldn't sense her presence at all.

It has been 2 years since then. Still there has been no sign of her. We are fearing the worst has happened... fearing maybe Adrian took her out for her betrayal to him... It's the only conclusion we can figure on, and the thought is literally tearing my brother apart. I sense the depression he has sunk deeply into. It scares me... He keeps wandering off on his own and disappearing. This last time he left, I couldn't help the fear. I just had this great feeling as if it were the end... as if he was finally so broken he couldn't make it any longer.

Aurora went to him. I am still waiting word as to whether or not he is okay.

Losing Saph when they were married the first time was hard enough on him... to lose her a second time even though they are not married this time...

I fear he will do something he will not live to regret...

Sapphira- Grrr....

2007-01-02T17:04:00.000-08:00

(RP)

I swear this just was not my night at all...

Against my better judgement I went down to the wedding reception to at least attempt to get a couple of drinks out of the wedding reception. Unfortunately I really should have stayed in my room. I was nearly smacked in the face with the bouquet so yes I caught it. Adam saw and just shut down. He left the room and I was unable to reach him. Some guy named Malcol Lewis caught the garter and I had to stay for that... not that I wanted to- the groom is a very... interesting man and apparently doesn't matter who sees him doing what... -.-"

I left after Malcolm placed the garter on me and we shared one dance- have to admit... he is a decent dancer... Anyway- I left and went to my room where I was soon met by an old friend of mine... A "pirate" named Morgan. I met him not long after Adam's wedding. He taught me a lot about myself that one night we knew each other. But I knew we would at least remain friends. He seemed to know exactly what I was feeling... anyway- he stayed for a cup of coffee before he had to get going and then i went to bed. But something felt horribly off.

I got up and after a few minuts, I went to Adam and Kaida's room to check on them. When I got there however, no one was there. Well.. almost no one... I stepped inside and soon after felt arms grab me and the next thing I knew I was at Adrian's place. I looked up to see 3 faces I wished I hadn't seen...

Adam, Soran, and Riku... all with these horribly evil looking eyes. I struggled against my captor, an assassin named Stefan, but I was unable to break free. Adrian got right in front of me then. A test of will...

and I failed miserablly...

Now I struggle with myself to write even this. Seems my Cerean blood or the fact that I am a Chosen One allows me some very small access around the spell that has been put upon me... I stress the very small...

Things have happened... that I can't discuss right now... I cannot discuss them because I don't know how to put what has happened into words. The spells cast over us allow us no control over our bodies, we can only watch within our minds as we go through the towns creating chaos. I can only imagine what Soran and Riku are feeling...

And for Adam and me...

It's 10 times worse...

Poor Kaida... If she ever learns of things that have happened here...

I can never go near her again... If I can ever regain control of my own body again....
Don't get me wrong, it isn't that I don't enjoy what happened... I just know it is wrong...

But I have to say... I wonder where Adam learned what he was able to do? Something tells me Kaida isn't the one he practiced with... and I don't recal him using as much force before... I'm not complaining... just in awe I guess

Still... There will be grave consequences for this that I cannot escape...

Grave consequences for these actions indeed...

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(side)

Something bad is going on within the mansion and I have yet to figure out just what, but I fear that Celeste may have been caught up in the middle of it somehow by becoming involved with Xavier.

Adam and I may be able to reclaim the life we once had, but we still cannot forget about the lives of our children either.

I found it odd that Xavier was making such a big deal out of Adam going to clean out the filter in the pool, but I passed it off. he's Orifiela nd RIJ's son after all so he... is going to be a bit on the eccentric side. I just figured maybe he did some kind of experiment and he didn't want anyone to know what it was yet...

But a scream sent us all out to the pool anyway.

Celeste had fallen into the water which was tinted a deep red. Xavier helped her out of the pool and began to ask her if she was all right. I could tell that she wasn't, but for some reason she collected herself and began to deny anything was wrong. She even helped Xavier to convince Adam not to check the filter.

Something about him scares her, I can sense it. I wonder if there really is more to him than we know.

When Adair emptied the pool after Xavier took Celeste to her room, we learned the reason for the red water. There was a body on the floor of the pool. Missing a hand, but the body was there. We learned later it was the hand that had gotten caught up in the filter.

I have to wonder now if Celeste is up in her room alone with a murderer. She is a vampire, she can hold her own... but I still get a sense of fear within her...

I pray that she will be all right...

Sapphira- Weddings

2006-12-28T09:14:00.000-08:00

They just aren't something I can attend anymore. I used to enjoy them. I loved attending them, sharing in the laughter and fun and excitement... But they.. they just don't hold the same joyous feeling for me anymore. Not since the last one I attended in secret...

Adam's...

I don't think I can ever look at weddings the same way again. I love him yet I can't be with him. It's so hard to keep a proper amount of distance between us. It takes a lot of energy to keep myself at a fair distance and yet make it so he doesn't notice. I can't hurt him. I can't be the reason he regrets marrying Kaida. He cares so much for her... I just can't get in the way...

Perhaps a day will come where I can finally move on and meet someone new...

If I can ever allow myself to do that... I still live by my vows to him. I have to remember that because I was considered dead, my vows mean nothing now... I think that's one of the things that hurts the most. That I have to let go of the past... and let go of Adam at the same time. He's her's now.. he can never be mine...

So yes... I will be hiding out in my room for this celebration... I could use the rest anyway...

I know Adrian is still PO'd about my trapping him long enough for Adam to get that spellbook form Alicia. I should be rested in order to deflect whatever he decides to do as punishment... As it stands, I am weaker than I should be now...

losing our minds?

2006-12-20T13:17:00.000-08:00

LP:

(RP) Well… things are definitely interesting… Adam is still trying to find the spell to save his 2 little boys… who … aren’t really so little anymore… and Angel is getting married in a few hours… I don’t know how anyone will be keeping their mind’s straight around here for a little while…

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(side) I know there is no way I can make sense of things… all I know is that bad things have happened… and once again the fate of the world is at stake and our family may be the only ones who can protect it once again…

If I can get Angel back from Theron. That would definitely be helpful…

I’d hate to have to pit mother against daughter in a fight to the death battle of Dark verses Light…

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Sapphira:

(RP) After one too many fights with Adrian, I am exhausted… it seems all I can do is sleep anymore. But at least Adam has what he needs. I just can’t help but fear what Adrian will do as a result…

I had not intended to- but had no choice but to bind Adrian long enough for us to get through… not just him, but Alicia his Spellcaster too… A double insult to him and his security…

I remember him from Eudora…

He does not like to be insulted or humiliated by anyone…

I fear danger ahead… grave danger…

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(side) Wow… where to begin… I don’t even really know how to… Aside from I am trying to figure out how Orifiel is alive… With the knowledge that Adrian has indeed become our enemy again… Alicia came to us for help. Adam and I went. We helped her get the book she would need. Now if only that book can help get things back to normal… but it’s hard to purify Angel’s Power once it’s gone dark… First we have to get her away from Theron… then we can worry about that….

And as for what’s going on with Adam and me? Well… That’s for a more in depth entry later… all I will say is that things are definitely not like I thought they would be…

Mistress of the Moon- Sapphira Raine- Hart

2006-11-13T10:35:00.000-08:00

My name is Sapphira. Saph to those who know me well, though there were a few times I was called Sapphire... *shrugs* Just a mishap of the name I guess. I am writing to share my story... It isn't exactly an easy one, but it's my story just the same... I am hoping in doing this I can figure out something... Solutions to things I have been facing.

First- Who am I? I am one of the few members of the Cerean Clan that still survived after the great battle of Eudora. I was one of the rare 6 chosen to wield a strong form of Power that many once thought only a legend.

I still have nightmares about the battle that took my parents from me. Our home exploded right in front of me. I had no means of being able to protect them. No way to save them... It was the day my life was taken from me.
But I also remember the man who gave my life back. The young Prince of King Sidel Hart. Adam.

Wild and carefree, I liked him almost instantly. He was like me in some ways, and yet there were ways in which we were different too. It was the perfect set up I guess you can say. He stood up to Dominik the first night we met to make sure that I was all right. I surprised him in many ways that night. Just as he surprised me. I remember wondering about the different feelings I felt when I was caught up in his arms. The things he made me feel... well... nothing short of amazing. AS I lay falling asleep in his arms, I knew I would be returning regardless of what Dominik's answer to the king was. Apparently Aurora had felt the same- for different reasons of course.

Trying to train Adam was interesting. I can't count how many times I hid my smile as I watched Adam use Silas as a target for some of his practices. And hand to hand combat? Well... Only works if that is actually what we are doing lol. I remember a few trips to the woods with the others in which... well... I'll say he was a "bad guy" who enjoyed being caught by the "good girl" lol. Yes... our training exercises usually ended up leading to more. It was us. Passionate was weak to discribe us.

We married the same time Aurora and Adair were married. The same day Adair was crowned King. I had not said anything, but I had been expecting our first child at that time. As far as anyone really thought- I gave birth prematurely. But our son was nothing short of beautiful; his father's hair and eyes that were very unique... Kind of a mix of crimson and violet. Being parents never slowed us down- though because of the war we were much more careful with him. As much as we wanted to take him out more often, we knew we could not.

The day I had to tell Adam to take our son and leave Eudora.... I never thought I could make it. I wanted to go with them. I didn't want to part with them. Adam and I knew I was the stronger one of us so I had to remain to fight. But we hated it. I don't think our last night could have been any better than it was... We clung to each other as if our lives depended on each other alone. There were times I felt without him I literally was dead... There are times I sometimes still feel that way. I never dreamed of my life without him.

That battle took a lot from everyone. I was so badly injured the Elders themselves had to heal me which took forever. As far as Aurora and Adair knew, I had been killed in battle. It was not true- but I had no means of telling them and the Elders had locked themselves away with me to continuously watch me, so they were unable to reach my friends as well.

For 300 years, I remained locked away, healing until I could move on my own once more. To this day, I thank Sol for being the primary reason as to why I am alive right now. He was there, feeding me his energy day in and day out. My wedding ring burned on my finger as a constant reminder of who I had to live for. I had no idea how much time had passed when I first stepped back into the daylight. When I had realized that 300 years had passed, i realized that so much time had gone by that even if they'd had hope for my life they had to have thought me for dead. But I still did what I could to try to locate them. I used my spells to get from place to place as I had no money of my own. Several people knew me then as the Moon Mistress as I would appear in moonlight, and with the right look, I could charm who was needed to get a roof over my head and a bite to eat. I never slept with anyone. I remained saved. The ring on my hand still reminded me of my family. I knew I had to find them again. I just hoped it wouldn't be too late.

One day I caught a break when I read about a popular dance club run by a man with the last name of Hart. It was to be closed that evening for a special event. As I checked farther, I saw what the event was. The owner's brother, Adam, was to be married. I stared in shock at the picture. I swear my heart froze. I knew it semed outrageous to think he would not take another in the time that had passed. To wait 300 years on a wife everyone thought was dead... I knew how ridiculous it sounded.

I kept my appearance a secret. I wish I hadn't now, but I did not want to ruin the new life he was creating. He looked so happy in that picture. Like he did when he and I were first seeing each other. No... I couldn't interfere.

He never knew it.... but I was there. I watched him as he spoke the same words he once spoke so tenderly to me... I watched him place a ring on her hand. Then I could not watch anymore. As silently as I entered, I left. I ran. I could not stay. I could not go to Adair and Aurora after that. I just couldn't. But fate is cruel sometimes...

I was out on my luck and Aurora tracked me down. She convinced me to come home with her. They had a spare room I could borrow. When I asked her about him, she told me he was on his honeymoon. I figured it would be okay for a little while. But he came home... He and his new wife... they came home. I fled my room and into the safety of a nearby forest. It is where I came into contact with a woman calling herself Rose. We fought. Once more I was badly injured. But when I heard Adam's voice... They took him... and not longer after they took me.

I woke to a throbbing pain in my head and excrutiating pain in my shoulder where it was disconnected. I had a cover over my face so I could not see where I was. But I sensed that I wasn't alone. The cover was lifted and I froze when I opened my eyes.

Adam...

My Adam... he was with me...

I don't know if I thought I was in a dream or what it was, but the longer we were together and alone in that cell, the more wrapped up in the past we became. We were lost in each other. I could feel him... he was with me, near me, within me again... It was only when we woke we remembered his wife... I felt his instant guilt.

I couldn't wait to get away...

I tried to okay. WE were helped out and made our way home. Adair found me and we had a long talk... Adam went... and confessed to his wife.

It was 2 months later I learned I was expecting... I was both happy and crushed at the same time. I did fine on my own. I kept it a secret from everyone. When I got to be about 7 months along, I began to show and I knew I couldn't remain in the house. I did not want Kaida to know. I did not want to come between his new marriage. So I left. Dorian checked in on me with no one knowing for a few weeks, and them .... Then Adam found out...

He was upset that I did not tell him. He wanted to be there for me. For our child... He understood my reasons... But it still hurt him.

Somehow I managed to give birth to a baby girl. I suffered greatly near the end of this pregnancy as I was under a constant psychic attack, and Adam was in constant fear for me and the baby. But we did all right...

I lived with Syeira outside the Hart home. We had a nice place and Adam was really supportive. He did everything he could for her.

Including bring her back to life... She and the family we lived with were killed by vampires. I was numb. I couldn't really think. He acted so quickly... But then I remembered another little girl who lived there. Her body was never found. He went back with the others to see if they could find her. Somehow she found me. And at the moment I was bringing her in and checking her for any wounds, Syeria was taken from our home... I.. I still have not seen her... I don't know if she is okay. I am extra careful with Riza. She is like my daughter now. She can't replace Syeira, but she needs me. Her mother... she was killed... her family.. literally pulled apart... Riza only has me now...

It... it is hard to see him and Kaida together. To know that I cannot be for him what she is now- it hurts more than anyone can ever imagine. The day I removed the ring from my left hand... I thought my life was gone... I felt so empty. So lost... the life he gave me... it was gone...

No one ever sees me cry... I hadn't cried since my parents were killed. I was Aurora's stone warrior. My emotions never showed. No one knew my weakness. No one could phase me. I went into battle fiercely and with everything I had. I showed no fear. It just wasn't me. But the night I removed that ring... I hid in my room that night... And for a week straight I did nothing but cry... I could not eat. I could not dream for I could not sleep. I felt like an empty shell. He sensed it. It hurt him to feel what I was feeling. But I couldn't help it no matter how hard I tried... I wanted him. I loved him. I wasn't ready to let go... I'm... I'm still not...

But I am doing better... I think...

My world was turned upside down again though about a week ago... The Hart home... I had just stepped outside with Riza; we were blown away from it when it exploded. Aurora, Natara, Bryant, Zahara, Dorian... Adam.... They were all still inside... I froze at first... It was like seeing my parents blow up in front of me all over again. Those I loved so dearly still trapped inside the smoldering chaos left behind in the aftermath. I knew where Adam had been. In the kitchen... I gave Riza to Adair and rushed passed Kaida to where the kitchen used to be. I dug and dug... My nails tore, the tips of my fingers burnt and bled as I dug deeper into the destruction.

I felt some relief when my fingertips brushed his hand. I gripped him tightly with one hand and hurried to dig closer to where I figured his face would be. I cried out his name when I finally got through, letting go of his hand, I cleared more and more away from him. I was almost afraid to touch his face. He was so pale... so very pale... He wouldn't open his eyes... I tried to call out to him, but my voice wouldn't work. My fear had frozen it... When he started to come around... His words did not make much sense to me... Then again I may not have heard him very clearly either... I wanted so desperately to just hold him... But as I removed more debris from him.... I physcially froze and went numb. He had been impaled by a piece of the frame work of the house, straight through the middle... a wound that would certainly have killed him... My world crashed around me. I freaked out. I lost control... I screamed for his brother to help... Adair got the wood out of his brother, but he wsa far from out of danger.

I watched him taken to the ambulance. I thought for sure it was the last time I would ever see him again... I clung to Riza and said my goodbyes... I wanted to be there... to hold his hand to tell him once more I loved him... But I knew it wasn't my place... So with all I could, I told Kaida to go... I told her I would take Soran and Kaira... that I would get us all a place to stay. That she needed to be with him... She started to tell me I should go and I stopped her. I am not his wife anymore... she is... He needs her... So I took the kids and left... nd when they were asleep.... I sat in the chair and watched them... wondering how Kida would explain to them their father would not be coming home... I cried myself to sleep....

My world.... was cold... and once again... I was alone... I was frightened... and I was alone.

I think I was dreaming... But I opened my eyes and stopped when I saw him... He had come for his children... He was alive... I couldn't scream because Riza was still alseep, but he was alive... I was too shocked to move... At first I took him for a ghost... I know that wound was a mortal one. I know he should have been killed...

Then I remembered... he couldn't stay... He returned to his room with his wife...

I was surprised when he came back a little while later... And for the first time... I let someone see me cry... I clung to him... And he just held me... Just like he used to. He held me until we fell asleep...

Ra... this is so hard... I watch him go back to her and wonder why he can't be with me... The Fates are cruel... no one should have to face this... this kind of pain... How... How can I just turn down the love I feel for him? How can I control it? How can I remain sane knowing that at night he curls up beside her while I sleep alone...

I feel the tears stinging again... I can't believe how selfish I sound... That isn't Sapphira Raine... that isn't who I am...

I fear that one day I will do something I will regret... that I would push Adam into something he doesn't want to be a part of... I'm afraid I will come between his marriage... his family... That fear keeps me away... Keeps me quiet when he is around. He doesn't understand the pain that goes through me at seeing them... Knowing that it should be me...

Knowing it could have been me...

Now here is where I post some corny tagline like "Never has there been such a tale of Woe- such as the one of Juliet and her Romeo...."

Unfortunately... I'm not in the mood to be corny...

This is my story thus far... I wonder what the fates have in store for me next...

Sapphira Raine-Hart

Aurora: Explosive changes...

2006-11-11T01:07:00.000-08:00

Well.. Long sotry short, we are living in a hotel until repairs are done to our home. Seems a warning was sent to one or all of us and our home was literally blown apart.

Of course all this is after Adam and Sapphira's daughter was killed, revivied, and then kidnapped from them. Saph has been taken care of Riza, which has been good for her I think. Adam has moved on with his family, though I can still feel the struggle he has when around Sapphira. The love they had was tremendously strong. If only she had healed sooner and could return to him faster... if only we had known... We could have stopped him from remarrying, but she was missing for too long and finally thought dead.
Now they both have to deal with the reality that they each have to live lives separately from each other and I am not so sure they will handle that well at all... They will do their best, but there will be so much tension as they try to figure things out...

The new living arrangements won't be very easy on tense people as it is... All I can say is I hope the repairs are finished soon.

Zahara has gone to stay with Blake, Sanura with a man named Gabriel, and Angel has been given a place to stay with her daughter in the home of Orifiel... It seems odd my saying that, but as long as everyone is okay, that is all I can manage right now...

Ra.. when will it end...

2006-10-01T09:07:00.000-07:00

I never seem to get the time to really keep up with this. I try, but things just so hectic around here. I wish the hecticness of things was a good thing, but not all of it is.

To start off with everything, Angel managed to graduate high school. Atem and I were worried she wouldn't because of how little time she actually spent there. Orifiel took up a great deal of her time. They were to go to the Prom together as a last school activity. I know she had anticipated on a great deal of fun that night. However, I received a call that Angel had been taken to the hospital. She and Orifiel had been in a horrific accident. The details are sketchy at best. Some reports say he was killed protecting her. Some say he was merely unconscious. I did some meditation on this and learned that he had been killed, but as a result of another spell cast elsewhere, he was brought back. The unfortunate thing is that he remembers nothing of how things were prior to the accident.

It is this particular fact that Angel was informed that he was dead and not revived. She had been expecting their first child. She had 2 more months left before she was due. At least according to Dorian. What I find interesting is that when Serena was born, she should have been placed in a special room and connected to machines to keep her alive. 2 months premature meant that she was not completely ready. Her lungs and heart still were gaining strength to be able to function properly. I had a talk with Atemu later and he told me of a strange glowing white light inside the car he had seen before opening the door to get her out and to the hospital.

Again, I meditated on this fact. It seems the light was the Power we had been searching for. I knew it had been in her family. I was certain her mother had it. Now I am certain Angel is the carrier. But the appearance of the light meant more. Because the babe was not yet ready to be born, it needed a near life source to complete it's growth process. Orifiel's life had ended. The crystal reacted and used some of his life essence to complete his daughter and allow her to be born that night.

Knowing this, I wonder if he ever came face to face with his daughter if he would be able to sense his own spirit within her?

After she was released from the hospital, Angel contiously had dreams that did not allow her to sleep. She weakening and could barely get through a day. To help her, Atem and I allowed her to stay with friends of ours back in Paris. Sapphira was already staying there with them as she neared her due date for her own daughter. A daughter she shared with Atemu.

It crushed him that he had not been told from the start, but it was a choice she had made hoping to spare him the pain of being torn between her and his growing family with Kaida. Poor guy... he has children with both women now... and it has cost him dearly. He is as attached to Syeira as he is Kiari and Sora. Unfortunately, Sapphira and Syeira have remained living outside our home. Here is were things go from worse to horrible...

Seems Angel has learned Ori and Orifiel are both indeed a live. She has been having a hard time accepting things as a result of that knowldge. Serena is asking questions and Angel has no idea how to answer them. I can feel the love she has and I can feel her frustration and confusion. She has been seeing Ori periodically, but she says very little about Orifiel. I know he is the one in her heart. I just hope she isn't using one to stay near the other...

Then terrible... Kai and Melody's family was attacked. Sapphira had sensed Atemu in danger and had gone out to help him. He was nearly fatally injured and she used a great deal of her power to bring him back and give him strength again. During this exchange, the attack occured. Both Kai and Melody with killed. Sahen, Ciara, and Syeira.... It seems the attack was done by a group of vampires. We know that Syeira has been turned into one of them. Atemu was the one who found her. He managed to bring her back to us but he could not lift her curse. Even worse, when we went back to chack on another little girl who had not yet been found, Syeira was taken again. The other little girl is okay and still in Sapphira's care. Her name is Riza. It seems she belongs to a woman named Kiza who was killed the night of Angel and Orifiel's car accident.

Things are still very unclear at this time just what will happen. I see changes... But the biggest change has yet to be revealed to Atem...

I had a long talk with Zahara. She finally told me who she has been dating. I will admit I was cautious at first. It was hard to be okay with her dating someone who has long since been an enemy of our people. But she has been taken care of. He has never hurt her. In her own words of course. He has apparently even asked her to marry him. I told her if he made her that happy then I gladly offer my support. But for her father to be okay with the union, Bakura is going ot have to ask him for her hand. If that happens...

Well I guess we shall see.

My visions show happiness for them. As long as certain hurtles are gotten through. they will be fine.

Sapphira's return....

2006-08-26T07:31:00.000-07:00

So many things have been happening it is hard to get time to sit down and write anymore. Atem and I have been closer than ever to finding our missing daughter Sanura. With every kill of this Black Rose Assassin, we find little clues now left behind by her. More than just the Black rose left behind at each murder. They are magical clues that only our kind are able to see. A direct message. She is aware of who she is and that someone is looking for her. She has not given up completely. We have even gained a little extra help in our friend Sapphira who was late in joining us.

Her wounds in our last battle with Theron were near mortally inflicted. If Set had not taken her in to the temple of the Elders to help her, she never would have pulled through. As it is, she has regained herself and come back to join us. There is just one small problem.

Atemu.

Before the final battle, Sapphira and Atemu had a kind of love to rival that of mine and Atem's. They were together all the time, teaching each other, laughing, and enjoying each other's company. Sometimes I find it hard to believe that they came together after his lizard stunt at the dinner table during our first meeting. But they had a love that was pure. It was so strong anyone could see it when they walked into the room together.
The final battle tore them apart. He had to leave with Zahara and Adais as he was not strong enough to stay and fight. they hated parting ways but they had no choice. She tried desperately to leave and go with us when we had healed and were ready to leave oncemore, but the Elders would not let her because she was still much too weak. By the time she was able to be released into the world again...

Atemu had met and fallen in love with another young woman named Kaida. Atem and I had not said one word about Sapphira contacting us and arriving in Harbor Springs. We weren't sure just what would happen if we DID say something. I had meant to tell Sapphira about Atemu and his bride to be, but by the time she reached our town, she had already seen the announcement in the paper. She refused to come to the house. If she did, it was only while he was gone. I know she was at his wedding. We all seemed to notice her except him. When the Officiat declared them husband and wife, she left. Dorian, Natara, and Bryant followed after her because Atem and I couldn't get away. By the time we did reach them, she was gone. We didn't see her again until after Atemu and Kaida left for their honeymoon. She moved into one of the spare rooms we were keeping for her. Atem keeps saying he is going to get that mansion at the far end of town. It would be plenty big for all of us and then some if it came down to it. For now we are here though.

When Atemu came home from the honeymoon, Atem and I were immediately on edge. Sapphira had just missed him when she left to go for a swim in our pool. I guess she heard his voice though because the next thing I knew I sensed her in her room. I wondered how long it would take for Atemu to realize she was here. Apparently once he got to his room he noticed. She fled right after that and I couldn't help but wonder if she would ever be okay.

Kaida went to help Natara prepare dinner and Atemu came to us asking about Sapphira. We had no choice do to our code of honor but to tell him that Sapphira was there and she left. He went out into the woods behind our home in search of her. I lost track of her and him then as I was concentrating on Angel. She'd been away fro a while again and I was getting worried. Normally she would at least call. Most times she is okay in her mind, but periodically I have been getting thoughts of distress coming from her. It worries me. Still, she feels so safe with this Orifiel guy. I still don't know much about him. I can sense 2 souls within him though. Like there are 2 people within his body. That does concern me. I can't help but wonder what could happen as a result of all this...

To top everything off... While Atemu was gone, Atem, Kaida and I were talking when I got a sudden vision in my head. I saw Sapphira... and Atemu... In a situation that should not have been. I had to leave the room to clear my mind. Atem wondered what happened. It wasn't until later we had learned that there was a fight. Atemu and Sapphira had been captured. In the time alone together in the cell they were in, they were lost to their past. But there will be consequences to those actions.

He may have confessed to Kaida upon his return, but a surprise lies in wait for all of them that even he cannot prevent. I can't help but wonder how his family will react when the secret is finally revealed. Kaida is a strong woman... But even she has her limits...

What Luck...

2006-07-09T22:56:00.000-07:00

We were correct in our guess. We have found Atemu and Zahara and Adais. It was a wonderful reunion. We have even gotten them to move into our home. It will be crowded a little while until Atem can get us something a bit bigger. He is working on that. Could be next year before we get it though.

Everyone has been reunited and ...

well.. all is not well.

We went out with Atemu to celebrate us finding each other. When we came home, Atem received a phone call. Zahara was found in an alleyway.. brutally raped and... I can't even begin to describe what happened. She will have a few permanate scars from all this. One being a letter "M" that was carved near her hip. All our healing strength can only go so far. There are some things that just cannot be removed. It will be a constant reminder.

She has night terrors now. It's hard to wake her from them. I had to resort to subliminal messages to her mind in order to calm her long enough to go back to sleep. I may have to do for her what was done to Angel and erase her memories of this day. She cries often. She is in a great deal of pain. She can't move around a great deal until the stitches are gone. It would be worse if she tore them. So until she is completely healed from her needed surgeries, which will be from no on handled by our own doctor, Dorian, I have to help her to get from her bed to the shower. She misses her baths, but that isn't good where stitches are concerned. I know she can make it through this. it will be hard, but she can. I just hope eventually the pain eases...

for more details on her attack, it can be found here But I don't suggest it as light reading. It is graphic and blood filled. I loathe the man who did this to my daughter.

I hate even more that she blames herself....

Angel has gone missing now. Though I am upset that she left without speaking to me, it is not unlike her to do so. She was in a foul mood when she came home from her rehearsal for the play of Romeo and Juliet. I still am not sure what has gone wrong, but I feel something devastating has happened to her and she is not yet ready to reveal it. I hopes she feels she can soon. It could harm her later if she doesn't.

At first I feared Theron found her after all this time. But I thought back and learned that I did not sense his presence here. She must have just gone on to school early today... again nothing unusual from her...

Still.. After what happened to Zahara... I can't help but worry...

A New Beginning...

2006-07-05T17:38:00.000-07:00

My name is Aurora Hart. I guess I am what is called the leader of what is left of my people, the Cerean Clan. My story is long, but I shall make this brief... or at least as brief as I can. There is a lot to go over, and not often enough time to tell this story. This is the new beginning for the survivors of the battle. I say battle, because the war is far from done.

My family, friends and I all used to live in the country of Eudora.

I say used to because things happened that destroyed our fair country. Not that it was an easy place to live. In all the world, only Eudora was set aside for people like us. Immortal, gifted. The outside world feared us and our strength. Too many of our kind were being sought out and killed. To protect ourselves, Eudora was created. There were laws and rules to follow of course, just like any place.

Eudora was run as a kingdom. We had our own King named Casius for a while. He had twin sons, Atem and Atemu. Atem is the oldest. He was the one given the crown when his father passed on. His younger brother Adam was a wildchild of sorts. Still, he could be counted on when needed. I will touch more on them later.

As with any kingdom, there was both a good side and a dark side. Those who were criminals were exiled to the shadows of the Dark Forest. Many creatures of the night lived there. All of them immortal in their own way. Vampires, werewolves, thieves, and murderers. They were all there. The strongest one of all was a man named Theron. He was Casius' older brother and rightful heir to the throne when their father passed on, but the Elders had stepped in, preventing that. The Elders were a group of powerful men and one powerful woman who were like guides to the immortals. They were the ones brought in for all finalities in regards to laws and trials. When an immortal was to be determined who was light and who was dark, the Elders made such a call. They were feared by many, respected by most, while others preferred they never existed. It was rumored that while the Elders were supreme, they most often did not make the best decision.

And everything came with it's price. Where the Elders were concerned, that price was a sacrifice. Most often a life.

Theron never got over the betrayal he felt when the Elders passed teh crown to his brother. He vowed vengenance. He vowed the crown would one day be his. Casius fought his brother until he could no longer fight on. When the gods called him home, Adair too his place.

My clan was brought into the middle of this war when my father, Dominik the leader of our clan made several deals with Theron in exchange for some kind of power. One time that deal included my arranged marriage to Theron's son Shadow. It was a marriage I did not want. I was struck down by my father in a manner that should have killed me.

Yes, I said that right. For even immortals must one day meet their maker. Every creature has a time when their life is over. Apparently, that day was not my time. Those who learned of Dominik's secret betrayal sided with me. There was a battle as Theron's men aided my father, but in then end, I was the one to take his life. For he was not the strongest in our clan. Nor am I alone. There are six of us known simply as the "Chosen Ones". Blessed with greater powers and skills. Enhancing what power and magic we were already born with. Unfortunately, as they say, great power comes with greater responsibilty.

The day after my wedding to King Atem, coincidently the day he was crowned as King, word came of an impending battle. My friends and I had been preparing for such an attack. We knew not everyone could be spared. We took a chance and then raised the magical shield keeping our kind safe from the human race. We had no other choice. Those without power and magic we told to flee, that included Atem's brother, Atemu.

Atemu did not wish to leave, but he understood. The day their father was kiled, they lost their mother and baby brother. In another battle, our daughter Sanura was kidnapped from us. We still have not been completely successful in locating her. Atem did not want to lose his last living kin. His twin. It was hard, but in the end, Atemu agreed and left with several others. Also included with those departing were our other daughter, Zahara, and our son, Adais. Adais, Zahara, and Sanura were triplets. They were also the first and last children Atem and I were to have. Having had Sanura taken from us, we thought it best that Zahara and Adais stay with Atemu.

The battle was intense and draining. Atem was badly hurt. Before losing consciousness he used the last of his strength to give me his power. My friends, Natara, Bryant, Dorian, and Sapphira- the only ones left of all who were in our clan- lent me their powers as well. With all of their powers combined, I was able to pull the power source from Theron's pendant and seal it within a crystal. Then with a last attack, he and I collided. There was light.

Then there was nothing but darkness.

I woke sometime later in a dark cavern. There were candles all around. The female Elder, Isis, was wiping my forehead with a damp cloth. I looked for the crystal, but was forced back down. After a while I was informed that the crystal was put somewhere it would never be found. They were fools... I knew Theron, if he survived that blast, would find it eventually.

And I was right.

With our people scattered about, only the Elders seemed to be able to locate several of them. Mostly the Dark Immortals. To keep our place protected among the human race were were given humans to guard over. We never knew when it would happen, but when one was in need, an Elder would appear and give the instruction. I had to say that I wasn't not too keen on the Dark Immortals being guardians over anyone, but my opinion did not count as far as the elders were concerned.

Atem and I began our search for Atemu and the rest of our family. We had heard of a rash of attacks that seemed super natural in Paris, France. Without much to go by, we all (Atem, myself, and my friends), left for France. We learned a man named Alexander was wreaking havoc in the city. There was a woman who worked under him who called herself the Black Rose. With a little more research, we learned the targeted family was the Hope family. Remember when I mentioned Theron would find the Crystal? Apparently what the elders had not told me was that they had given the crystal's energy human form. By all accounts it was human. Lived and breathed, felt emotions... human... The power was also dormant. It had not been tapped into since taking this form.

We tried to stop the attack on the Hope family, but we had arrived too late. The man of the house had been killed. A woman pleaded that her daughter's life be sparred. It was then I noticed the red-gold head of a 4-year old girl with crystal blue eyes. Eyes that were staring wide-eyed at her father on the floor. Blood covered her body and I first thought she had been hurt as well. The man demanded to know where the crystal was, but the woman looked at him in confusion. I stopped the little girl's scream when she watched as her mother's life was taken.

I stole her away that night. It was later I learned her name was Angel. With both her parents gone, I became her guardian. It was like raising my own children all over again. I had Dorian erase the memory of her parent's murder so she could sleep in peace. She still wakes up from night terrors.

Still I am proud of her. She has excelled her way through school. Now she is in her Junior Year. She has managed the female lead in all the school theatrical productions so far, co-captain of the Cheer Squad to be captain next year, heading up the Prom committee this year as well. I have heard her plans. It is going to be such a beautiful night to remember. The phone is always ringing off the hook for her. I had to smile when Atem threatened to pull the plug on it one night.

Still, there is a sadness hidden in the back of her eyes. A sadness; yet a strange light as well. Her birthday is a sad day for her. It was that day that she knows she lost her family. We still haven't told her how. We haven't told her of the secret that her mother took with her to the grave. But because of that secret, we no longer have an idea as to where to look for the crystal or it's power. Her mother was the only clue we had.

Good news is we have been able to locate Atemu finally. We just have to go show him we are still alive. And what's more is I think we have an idea as to where we can find Sanura as well. Both clues we found lead to a down called Harbor Springs. Atem has purchased a smaller home for us there for now. Enough for us until we find everyone and need larger accomodations. For now, we are trying to give Angel as best a normal life as she can have.

That has proved to be difficult at times. She has mentioned the feeling of being followed a few times. Came home furious one day when a teen at school snipped off a lock of her hair before a basketball game. She whimpered about having to spend another hour to rearrange her hairstyle before cheering at the game. It seems there is a gang in the school calling themsleves the Chainers. She has been appraoched a few times, but always had the sense enough to turn them down.

Though she is always seen in the company of her many friends both male and female alike, I have often heard her on the phone speaking about a guy in her advanced English Lit class named Ori. I asked her about him. She said he was nice enough, but she'd seen him around the gang. But she also said that was the odd thing about him. One minute he is quiet and kind of shy, but the perfect gentleman no less. But the next minute she says he gets this dazed look in his eyes like he's high on something. Drugs it is rumored from what she has heard. He has this enigmatic confidence that seems to come out of nowhere, but with it comes a darker perverted side she is leery of. I only asked that she be careful.

Atem calls to me. He has confirmed his brother's place here. We know where we are most likely to find him. A bar in town. Won't he be surprised to see his brother survived the terrible explosion that destroyed our homeland?

I shall return to this later with more updates as we seem to have decided to try to fit in here in this town. Maybe we can finally say we have found a place we can call....

Home...

LP: Writing just to write...

2006-06-09T16:13:00.000-07:00

Not too much to report here. Things are relatively quiet here at the penthouse. Seems once we lost Sanura and RIJ, Angel and Ori, Zahara and Bakura, things really settled down. Aside from Atemu flipping out over Sachiel's possible involvement in a gang called the Chainers... Atem and I see the care Sachiel has given to Corrina. He won't let harm befall her. It's a matter of getting Atemu to realize that in his own way Sachiel is protecting her. Atemu is a worrier though. Always has been. More so since Atem, Angel, Natara and I were killed in our battle with Theron 14 years ago. I guess it comes from him being the emotional one.

I can only imagine what he was like when we had to make him leave before the battle that took Eudora off the map....

My sleep has been peaceful for the most part. So far nothing warranting a premonition. But I do have an odd feeling that something is near. I have set up times to work harder with the kids in their training. I know they may resent it, but they know they have to be ready.

I just hope the rest of us are ready as well...

LP: An update... finally

2006-06-01T23:00:00.000-07:00

A lot of things have happened over the past 14 years. So much so I think all of us just didn't have the time to write. I know Angel has been living peacefully on her own with Ori and their now 3 kids. I hear they are doing fine. Sanura and RIJ have decided to move from the penthouse to their own place, but have remained in town. Actually, they live not too far from Angel and Ori, so we can easily all get together for visits. Our visits tend to turn into parties on the beach however which I won't complain about. I enjoy the visits.

Sanura and RIJ have managed to work things through as well. Though I doubt she would feel quite so sure if she knew how RIJ sepnt his alone time. Yes, I do know about the affair he and Angel have been having all these years, but I cannot interfere. Sanura and Ori will have to find out on their own. Unless it ends. Still, the weight will be on Angel and RIJ's hearts. Either way, I know RIJ and Sanura have been meeting on some kind of common ground because they did renew their vows alongside with Ori and Angel in a beautiful double ceremony. Then Sanura and Angel both learned they were expecting new children at nearly the same time. So that makes Oriel , Sachiel , and Rayne for Angel and Ori; Orion and Raven for Sanura and RIJ.

Up the cliff, overlooking everything, Zahara and Bakura found their own home. There, 19 year old Cayden and Nakia have grown and gone to school while still keeping in contact with cousins and friends. They even accepted their new little sister who is 15 now. Her name is Serenity . I have to admit, she's adorable, and more like her father than even Nakia was. Cayden and Oriel have become quite close over the years and though we have all discussed it and see that there is more between them, they still deny they are anything but friends. We figure give them time and that will officially change. Perhaps on the class trip Zahara mentioned, even.

After a long engagement, Dorian and Vanessa finally got married. Another beautiful ceremony. 9 months later they had a baby girl they named Adelle . She is a cute little treasure who has grown up beautifully. She, too, is only 15. Just like her father, she has grown attached to the world of science though... Malik was being a smart ass on her last birthday and gave her a chemistry set... the penthouse was filled with foul smelling smoke for a week... It was almost worse than one of Atemu's smoke bomb pranks... Never could get the stench from my clothes... none of us did, so we all ditched the clothing we had and went on a shopping spree for new wardrobes. That was fun.

The next wedding was between Malik and Sapphira. Yes, they actually finally managed to get married. Another beautiful ceremony. Sapphira picked a dress to die for and I was beginning to wonder if Malik would be able to make it through the nuptials XD! The only thing I have to say is at least he managed to learn control over his testosterone lol. They are still living in the penthouse with us. Seems we have had the extra space with all the kids Atem and I had, as well as Angel, all moving out on their own. It's back to the last of our clan and Atemu, AFG, and their family.

Speaking of which, their's seems to be growing more as well lol. Good thing Atemu always wanted a large family. I have seen the looks of sympathy when I hold an infant... but they don't realize that it's better this way. Goddess Isis did what she did because she saw it for the best. Though I may not completely understand it, I think I rather enjoy seeing my children grown and gone. To have to go through those rebellious teen years again? I think not lol. I like that mine are able to think and live on their own.

Back to Sapphira and Malik again. They had twins of their own... Mason and Trinity . They are quiet which is odd for kids of 15 years, but they do alright. They fit in quite well with all of us. 3-4 times a week, all the kids get together and we all work with them of their skills, training them and honing their senses. Teaching them our ways. There will come a day in which Adrian and Rose will return, and Ra only knows who else. They are the newest generation. It will become their fight. Of course, they will never be alone in battle, we will always be there to back them up, but the fight is now their own to take.

With the new wave of children, Natara and Bryant were finally able to once again conceive and have a daughter they named Amera . She, too, is now 15. She is also a quiet one, but she is very strong. I have been impressed with her skill in practice. I haven't seen that kind of dedication in some time.

Atemu mentioned something about a couple of marks on Kairi and Sora that had never been there before. Kairi bares the shape of a cresent moon, while Sora now bares a lightning bolt. The new chosen ones are being chosen. The next evil will be coming in the future. It's only a matter of time. Perhaps we should be taking their training to the next level... My clan leader sense tells me they need to practice everyday, but my parental side tells me they need some kind fun in their lives. That would be the part of me speaking that didn't get to experience what life was like outside of clan rituals and rules.

I guess only time will tell when it comes to seeing how prepared they really are. Only time will tell...

LP: Returning to life...

2006-05-22T06:15:00.000-07:00

Which is exactly what I have done.

The battle was hard and long. Theron was ready for us. Poor Angel. I wasn't able to tell her properly about her true task in life. And Oriel, the poor thing had to be there to witness it. Theron had forced Angel from the prison she was in and was attempting to force the power out of her and assimilate it into his own. I tried to block it and could feel my own energy being pulled from me. She was scared beyond reason. Feeling helpless. But I'll be damned if she was going to go through this alone. I took her hand as the power came out in her. Together we turned and overwhelmed Theron's darkness with our light. He is now gone. But in the process we gave our lives.

It is odd. The After life. Most people who have had near death experiences are never there long enough to remember it. But I do. It's as if there is no time at all. Angel, Atem, Natara and I... We were there. We were together. I saw my mother. Old friends. It was beautiful there. No pain. No loss. Just... peace. No fighting, no worries. We were all just sitting there reunited with people we never thought we'd see again. Angel even found her parents. It was a joyous reunion for them. Atem got to see his parents and his baby brother, all of whom were killed by Theron long ago. Natara was even reunited with her lost son, Amir. She couldn't have been happier to see him again.

One minute we were all happy and in peace. The next... there was this burning feeling. At least for Atem and me. The others stared at us, not sure of what was going on. We both reached for them, but our hands never reached. Never touched. My chest was scorching and the next thing I knew, I opened my eyes and sat up gasping for air. When i looked around, all the peace was gone. All the calm and serenity... it was replaced by smells of flowers and trees, sounds of tears, then gasps of shock. Someone was holding my hand. I looked down to see Atemu, my brother in law. He let go and fell. Looking up, I saw Atem looking back at me with the same kind of shock in his eyes. Then it all came flooding back. Angel consumed my thoughts. I leapt from my coffin and ran to the one beside me, praying for her to wake up... well...

Part of me was praying for it anyway...

The other part of me wanted her to remain where she was so she would always be safe and at peace. But that wouldn't happen.

To make a long story short, Orifiel used RIJ to wake her, but she had no memory. She found friendship in RIJ which could have possibly become more, we are still unsure as to what happened while they were alone. She accepted that she was to be wed to Orifiel, though she could not remember. Accepted that Oriel was her daughter, though she wasn't sure how that happened either. There was a fight when Kayura showed up and all of a sudden she was gone. Just... gone.

When did she learn how to teleport? She never could have before. I can't help but wonder what else she can do now. And if it was just because RIJ brought her back or if some of the powers from the Cerean crystal that had used her as a vessel for so long were left behind within her.

I had Dorian do a test for me when I got to thinking about the powers that could be gained from being the vessel and began to wonder about Oriel. We had always assumed because of the sense of power within her that she was Orifiel's daughter, while tests had proved that Oriel's twin, who had not survived, was Ori's. It hadn't made any sense. When Dorian returned with the results, I learned I was right. Both were Ori's. The powers shown by Oriel came from Angel. I always wondered why Orifiel had been so shocked by her strength. Now I know. He doesn't have some of the powers that Oriel was exhibiting.

Zahara took Oriel to Angel who apparently was feeling safer at Ori's hotel room. An odd situation there as well. I'm not sure why she placed herself there. I doubt even that it was her intention. All I can think is that her mind was trying to work things out and she was trapped there. Her mind freed her by taking her to him. I sensed several emotions, from terror and confusion, to calm and peace. Then... happiness... Extreme happiness...

That came after Orifiel and Kayura disappeared however and things seemed even more confusing than ever. There was this darkness surrounding them before they disappeared. Ra only knows where they ended up.

Atemu decided to try to figure out what was going on with Angel at least so he teleported out of our home. The rest of us are merely trying to figure out exactly what happened... Though.. that could take a long time. I am at least relived that Angel is so happy. And since she is still legally married to Ori... If she's with him, then things are definitely at peace.

I only have to ask myself for how long will it last though...

Atem: Final note... just in case...

2006-05-06T21:18:00.000-07:00

Aurora was always the more gifted one when it came to writting her thoughts down. I did what I had to- but believe it or not I am not very poetic... Either way... We go off tonight in search of Theron. She has a way to get into his palace- she just needs to go back ot the mansion to get it.

I saw her message with her goodbye note... In it she called me her better half... She has no idea how much I depended on her for strength when I was weak. For support when I felt I was alone. She has no idea how badly I NEEDED her in my life. She completed me. Had faith in me when I had no more faith in myself.

Aurora, You are the one who taught me more about living the life I needed to live. You changed my world in so many ways...I can't even begin to describe it. Or the feelings you give me. I love you beyond reason. That hasn't faded in 3000 years and I've no intention to let that fade now. You were always there for me in tight situations na helped me through. This time I will be fighting along-side you. I will be your partner not only in life, but in battle. You can count on me to do what needs to be done when it needs to be done. I'll not desert you. I love you, Aurora. I will do what I can to make sure we all come back safe. It isn't a guarantee... but... I will accept what fate is set before me. It is one more thing you taught me. To accept one's destiny and stand our ground; to not run away. I won't run away.

One cannot promise much when in war... And no matter what happens.. I will do my best to make it back.. but if I don't... Know that I love you. I love you, Always, forever, and longer... eternity ... I am yours...

LP: The War has begun again...

2006-05-06T21:00:00.000-07:00

Atemu confirmed that Theron has once again gained access to Angel and has her a prisoner in his palace. That doesn't leave me much time. In fact it leaves me no time to prepare. No time for goodbyes. Not time for sappiness... I have to go back to the mansion get what I need and go.

There is no real definite that I will make it back. In fact... if things go the way I think they have to... It is almost certain. I will do what I can to change the fate that has been set out for Angel and me as well as others- but even I don't have THAT kind of power.

I have to stand my ground and face what is calling for me. Theron has wanted this battle for a long time and now I am finally ready. I think. I better be. I don't have the time to tell Angel the truth. I can only hope she understands. She isn't going to like this. And I fear her reaction... She was a being of power who was never meant to be so... so human... But she WAS human on the outside. She loved, she felt pain and regret... This never should have happened to someone so pure...

Atem... In case I don't make it back... it seems we are all leaving these little goodbye notes... I want you to know you have always been the better part of me. You filled my world with light when it was dark and you showed me the meaning of true love and hope. My world.. my life has been a MUCH better place since you have been a part of me. My partner, my husband.. my best friend... Though no one knows if this will be the final farewell or not- I can't risk you never knowing just how I feel. I love you, Atem. No matter what... know that I loved you with all there was of me... You completed me. Breathed life into me... I was nothing without you... Good bye...

LP: Home...

2006-05-01T21:22:00.000-07:00

And very tired...

Atem left with his brother to rescue AFG, Natara, Bryant, and Riku from a man named Adrian. I don't remember him so I have no idea truly who he is.

When he returns it will eb time to speak with Angel and Orifiel and explain what is going on.

For now- it is time for sleep...

LP: Fear...

2006-04-27T11:39:00.000-07:00

I fear so much...

I can sense that Angel was in danger. I also sensed the release of the power I was hoping could have remained dormant. She was under a direct attack but something else triggered the release of the power. And if I sensed it that means Theron knows it is still very much alive as well.

I must finish my search as quickly as I can. She has no idea what is going on. Not entirely anyway...

It's her ultimate death if I can't figure out an alternate means before it's too late...

LP: On my own...

2006-04-25T21:57:00.000-07:00

I am on my own now to complete my task. There seems to have been a problem back home. Atemu has lost control of himself. I appeared in Paris where Atem, Natara, Bryant, and I were at and nearly destroyed the town...

You know... It's always hard o go up against someone you love in battle. You don't want to hurt them yet you know you may very well have to... Anyway- knowing he wasn't stable enough with this Adrian released his control, Atem and the others escorted him back.. or rather.. they were going to. Adrian took control again and sent him back... so the others followed after him to stop him.

Now it is just me, going through the old rubble that used to be the Hope residence. I am hoping there can be some clue here- but being as Angel's mother had no idea she was the hidden crystal, I doubt I will find much... I just hope in my search I can come up with something to spare Angel's life... Or Oriel's... I can't return until I have found something... I just hope I am not too late when/if I do find it...

LP: Back in action...

2006-04-21T18:06:00.000-07:00

Literally. As I write this I am on my way back to France to begin my search for what is needed to stop Lord Theron before he gains even more power and control. Already he has done too much damage to my family and if he gets ahold of Angel and Oriel he will do far more damage. If anyone evert hought Adrian or Ori were tough as opponents they truly have no idea what they are up against with Lord Theron. Atemu tried his hand against the darkest of the dark kind and as he said, he couldn't even scratch him. This worries me. That means he has been alive far greater a length of time than I had thought and has merely been lying low. Now he is ready to begin his attacks. If he is appearing in person then he is making this a personal battle- trying to call me out.

Well I am not ready to face him.

Not yet.

I never told Angel about her past. About the battle that stole the lives of her parents from her. The battle that eventually landed her in my care. Atem and I truly are the only parents she has really ever known... at least that she can remember. Dorian was kind enough to help remove the more gruesome of the events from her mind. All she remembers is that they were killed.

And I had every intention of keeping it that way.

But Theron is forcing my hand.

I leave now to track down a special crystal that was lost long before that battle. Theron had taken it from me and in a fight to retrieve it, the crystal was lost to both of us. It was when Sapphira and Natara were doing some research that we learned the Crystal had not merely just disappeared, it had hidden itself until it was truly needed again. It had taken on a human vessel. Unfortunately the human had no idea it had been a vessel.

That vessel was Angel's mother. Theorn had taken her life when she refused to give what she had not even known she had. I tried to reach her in time, but by the time we learned what had happened to the crystal and reached the home it was already too late. I saw Angel watching on in horror and her father was sacrificed first in an attempt to get her mother to break. When it didn't work to his satisfaction, Angel watched her mother's life stolen form her as well.

No.. no one knows just how cruel Theron can truely be. I have seen it. Angel has seen it. Sanura has been a victim of him. Had it not been for Atemu, we would have been burying my daughter instead of taking this trip to learn where the Crystal had sealed itself this time. I fear I already know. I fear the Crystal may have merged with Angel while her mother had been carrying her to term. If Angel isn't the vessel for the Crystal now, Oriel is.

And that would explain the stronger power coming from the child. Either way- both are in danger if we annot locate another means of destroying Theron. Because the only way for the Crystal's power to be released...

Is for the vessel to be sacrificed.

It's a fate no human truly asks for. A fate much like Marik when he was forced to have Atem's memories carved onto his back.

I think back on things and I remember Angel's bright smile. Filled with such innocence. Her eyes hold secret truths that even she may never recall. But one day the memories will return. One day she will have to face the danger head on. I was able to protect her as best I could including making us completely connected so I would know if she were in danger. I felt the terror when Orifiel first harmed her. I felt the pain when Ori killed her. I felt the burning in my chest as she struggled for that first breath as an immortal. I went through the pain with her when Oriel was born. I felt her saddness, her pain. When Kayura killed her a second time I couldn't breath. I even lost consciousness for a period of time.

Because of this I will know if I must return. But hopefully Theron will allow us the time needed to find a different way to destroy him so I can spare Angel the grief of either giving up her life or her daughter's life. I never told her she had powers... Her powers could surpass mine if she knew of them...

But I have hid them from her with great reason...

To keep her safe.

Now I have to risk her safety to find another way to keep her safe. Orifiel... Keep her safe. Don't allow Theron to find and take her or Oriel. Atemu... please watch over them all to the best of your ability. I have faith in you and know you will do the best you can.

Theron will go after all my children and their own children, I am not denying this... It's the way he works- crush his opponent one step or life at a time... So all are in danger. But Oriel and Angel are in the worst danger of all...

Please Ra.. let us hurry home soon.

Atem: Signs of promise...

2006-04-07T17:33:00.000-07:00

Aurora is slowly beginning to come around finally. Her fever is going down and she is beginning to see clearly again. I am thinking I may have over reacted. It is possible it was just a normal sickness that affected her deeper because of the stress she has been under in trying to keep the peace.

Luckily it seems to be quiet around here. Angel and Orifiel have gone off to Orifiel's class reunion. Malik is off preparing for something big apparently. RIJ... is sulking around here in silence. Zahara is spending time with Cayden and avoiding anyone who comes near her. Sanura is hiding out in her room. My brother... Ra only knows what he is up to- I only know that he isn't here...

Needless to say because I have been in here caring for Aurora I don't really know what is going on in this home... I can't help but sense trouble on the horizon though... So much for Aurora getting better... Hopefully they can manage without here... a greater evil is nearly ready to make himself known... It is only a matter of time before this silence is broken...

Atem: Still here...

2006-04-03T04:00:00.000-07:00

Aurora still isn't showing signs of recovery. I wish I knew what was happening. There was a blue light around her a bit ago, but I have no idea what that was about. I only hope it didn't do much more harm.

It is really quiet downstairs. I thought I heard Zahara cry out at one point, but it has remained silent since then so I am not sure.

I know she is going through so much. I know about her and RIJ... I know the damage it has done and the damage that will continue to do if things don't change soon. I can sense she is confused. I know others wonder why I don't step in to help her, but I can't. This is something she must figure out on her own. Her choices may not be the best, but they are still her choices to make. I know in the end she will do what is right. I just hope it won't be too late...

LP: Dreaming...

2006-03-24T15:18:00.000-08:00

I am trying to rest, but my dreams continue to wake me up. I have heard of the kidnappings and tried to do what I could to locate them, but all I come up with is a blank wall. I am still too weak to push harder and learn more. I feel Angel's despair, Zahara's anger, and Sanura's rage. Each hold a hope that their children will be alright. The person I feel the most right now though is my brother in law. Atemu...

He is grief-stricken. He can hardly leave his room. He just stays hidden away.

I need to check in on him. If only I could stand. My legs are weak. I can't help but think Theron is behind this. I can't help but think he found a way to affect me from a distance. I wouldn't put it passed him. I just hope to Ra that he isn't behind this sudden weakness.

I guess now I must return to sleep... Return to my dreams... they are calling to me again. Trying to show me something... something I don't understand. Something important...

Atem: filling in...

2006-03-21T10:42:00.000-08:00

Aurora hasn't been very talkative lately. A lot has gone on and she is finally drained. I wondered how long it would take before her body just shut down. To always be in the public eye, trying to keep the peace, some of her strongest powers used to teleport, conjure, and create different things, on top of the different battles among family members.. it has all become too much.

The final straw I think was a small verbal battle she had with RIJ. He said something to her about not knowing anything about pain. He coudln't be farther from the truth. I admire her strength considering what she has been through. Her friends have banded together to keep a closer eye on her. Dorian is stretched between her, Zahara, and Orion. I wonder when his body will give out on him. I don't know how he manages. Zahara... Is in a situation I never would have thought anyone in my family to be in. Especially her. She is expecting and doesn't know who the father is. It should be Bakura's of course, but she had a side line affari with RIJ for a short time that makes this pregnancy questionable. I know RIJ was not happy with the news and Sanura lost her sanity for a while. I am normally the quiet one that let's them figure things out for their own, but not this time. Sanura kept saying some really nasty things about Zahara so I finally took her aside. I could see Aurora just couldn't do it.

Then comes more news... There is a woman under Ori's control who .. seems to have a connection to us. My brother first brought it to my attention. So I went to see her myself. The woman is named Elena. A beautiful woman. I could see she has been aged. Meaning she is much older than she should really be. It was done to fool us I am sure, but not only was her age rushed, but so was that of her son Ryuji. Elena has crimson eyes, like my brother and I... like Sanura. I am almost certain that she and Sanura have the closest connection.

My daughter swears her daughter was stillborn. I had not even known she had one. But Malik and Marik did. They told the story as Sanura was unable to. Seems she had a daughter and she was told the baby was dead at birth. So she never knew her daughter. She lived life as though she did not have one. This news... it has shocked her to a point she no longer knows what to do. I do hope things work out and if Elena is her daughter, we can get her away from Ori.

Angel seems better. As does Orifiel. He and my brother tried to convince her that it wasn't her fault that Ori switched to the dark side when she tried to take the blame for everything going on. I think in time, Orifiel will help her to see that she is wrong. I think in time, Orifiel and Angel can really help each other a great deal. I think Bakura and Zahara will get through this and at least those 4 can be happy. RIJ and Sanura... I wish I could say that I was just as confident in. I want to be, but it is hard. I would hate to see the children who would suffer if they don't figure things out and soon. AFG and my brother... a wonderfully strong couple. I admire them, I do. They seem to be even more in love now than anyone else I know.

Aurora ... she will be better with rest. I am keeping by her bedside until she wakes though just to be safe. I don't know what I'd do if anything happened to her. I love her more than life. I couldn't bare to lose her. missing out on being with her for 3000 years was hard enough to deal with. I know I could not manage living without her for eternity.

LP: Broken Peace...

2006-03-03T18:09:00.000-08:00

So much has happened I don't even know where to begin. 3 years ago some of you may recall that our home became some kind of safe haven for ghosts of the .. evil kind. Not able to go back we took up permanate residence at the Sheridan Hotel. After the first couple of months, Atem and I pooled money together and bought out the whole top level. We made it our home so everyone could still remain together.. though I am doubting that was such a good idea...

Anyway- Angel had given birth to her and Orifiel's daughter, but her happiness was short lived. She smiled only for her daughter, Oriel. No one else. She tried, but her heart was killing her. The first year and a half she was patient and fine. But as time wore on, she realized things had changed and not for the better. Orifiel had rejected her physically. He loved her, but he could not be with her. the revelation devastated her and she fell further and further into her depression. No one seemed to notice though. No one except me. Her guilt over how things had ended between her and Ori, coupled with her new immortality, and Orifiel's change of heart... It was too much for her. I don't blame her. It would be hard for anyone to take.

For 3 years, Ori left her alone and she tried to live a normal life. She connected with an old friend named Ryo and they got their old group together. She was singing and performing again. Even preparing to put out their first actual CD. She was going to make a name for herself. Sadly, now she won't get that chance...

I was in her room when Ori made an appearance to her and Orifiel. He tortured her mind; pushed her beyond her limits. I thought for sure she was going to end everything right then and there. She had locked herself in her bathroom and Orifiel couldn't get in. Oriel proved herself to be very powerful that day when she nearly wiped both Kayura and Ori off the balcony with just a thought. But the damage had been done. Orifiel was there for her, but not in the sense she needed and she knew this. When Ori and Kayura had left, I took Oriel and brought her out to the loungeroom so they could talk. I don't know what happened from there. I don't know what was said. But I felt her frustration, her confusion. Her feelings held a mixture of hurt, anger, and betrayal. She also held feelings of regret... and deep seated hatered.. of herself... It would only have been a matter of time before her light had gone from her.

I knew instantly that Angel was dead when it happened. My throat closed in on itself and I felt searing pain. Then Oriel screamed out for her mother. She coughed up blood at an alarming rate and then there was nothing. Her life was gone from us. Atemu came to us and told us that Angel was gone...

I should have paid more attention to her. She needed someone who cared about her. She ... She died alone. A fear she had always had... she died alone... She should have had at least one person she could have counted on. She should have been able to count on me. But she couldn't. And now she's dead...

Things in this home will never be the same again. Her light is gone from our family. I only hope that in her death, she finds the peace she has always longed for.

Arrangements will be made for both Angel and Oriel here in a moment. We just need to get Angel's body off the rooftop. She will be given a proper burial. She and Oriel... Oriel was her treasure. They will be buried together. She can at least hold onto the one thing in her life she truly loved more than life itself, aside from Orifiel... She can hold on and never have to let her daughter go again. It's the least Atem and I can do. The least I can do after letting her down...

Angel, my light... my hikari... I am sorry I did not protect you as I should have. I only hope you can forgive me and live a peaceful afterlife. Be with your daughter and be well. I will forever hold you in my heart...

LP: Very confused...

2006-01-27T15:47:00.000-08:00

....which is a bad thing... especially for me. One minute I am enjoying everyone's compnay when a sudden pain just rips through my body. I feel Angel in great pain, and she was scared and confused... I went to go to her but then I lost consciousness.

When I came to, Natara and Bryant's daughter Kayura was just explaining that Angel had been killed...

Talk about a shock to the senses.

Apparently Ori was informed of the immortality factor still hiding in her blood. Killing her released it. But with a price. A child was killed in the process... Ori never knew she was carrying twins. His jealousy fueled his reasoning in taking her life. For it also set into motion a binding tie between them. She is his. Not that there was a doubt, but should she be tempted to stray, in anyway... she would find herself in a great deal of pain.

Not only did it bind her to him in a whole new fashion... but it took the life of the child that was his... See the twins each had a separate father. One being Ori and the other being Orifiel. The child with Orifiel's blood protected hte other as best it could during the beatings she had suffered through during her abductions. But this final attack the weaker one of the two spared the life of the stronger. A daughter. At first appearances, she will seem to be Ori's without question... But soon her strength will be revealed.

Then the true tests will be revealed. Ori was adament about their child not being a part of Orifiel. That he killed it because it has half his. What will he do when the truth comes out that he killed his own child and allowed Orifiel's to live...?

LP: Surprise...

2006-01-25T19:36:00.000-08:00

But is it a good surprise or bad one... That is the question. See.. My hikari has had one bad night after another since those ghosts appeared. At first it seemed they were only after RIJ and Sanura and Orion. But then I learn that they appeared to Ori and Angel first. Then there were several attacks that left someone sore. It never failed. My hikari was taken while at Ori's house and beaten within an inch of her life. Before that was the vampire attack in which she still has to live with part of that curse. If she is killed, she will become immortal... But depending on HOW she is killed... it will depend on how the rest of her live goes. Then after the attack from Ori's home, she returns only to be kidnapped with Zahara. Then after we get her back we get back in touch and then the next thing I know she is taken again.

We found her at the circus grounds. Ori never asked. I never told him where I found her. Or who I found her with. If he was to learn that I found her lying on Orifiel's bed...

I don't want to think about it. I don't know what happened.. But I am not a fool. I saw the way they were sepaking to each other. I saw the way he looked at her. They don't know how long I was there, watching. Angel has a choice she will have to make one day. The choice will be who she loves more. Ori or Orifiel. In the end she chose her husband as I knew she would. But the temptation is strong between them. It grows stronger everytime they are alone together. I am not sure how long they can fight it before it explodes into something forbidden...

Which leads to the next part.. the surprise. Angel is expecting... The child will be born of both Ori and Orifiel. Same body means same father- even if 2 people inhabited that same bady. Something is nagging me about this though... As if I am wrong in what I have seen. Maybe there is more than one. Maybe the child won't make it... I guess as usual only time will tell.

I do know that Ori will be keeping a closer eye on her from now on... as well he should be...

Been awhile...

2006-01-24T04:45:00.000-08:00

I know it has been a long time since I have written. So many things have been happening... I had to try to cure my hikari of a vampire curse, then she is taken away from Ori while at his house... I learned that she was badly beaten during that one... Which could seriously spell some trouble...

She has no idea she is expecting... and her vision has gone from being with child to being without... so I don't know what will happen. I guess we will have to wait and see.

I did practically fry myself helping Orifiel and Ori gain seaparate bodies though after Angel was found... It is strange seeing him in the body he is in... But it was his choice... Orifiel seems to have gone for now... But I see him still unknowingly messing in with my hikari's life.... If she still has this child, part of it will be Ori's and part of it will be Orifiel's. For the first time a baby will biologically have 2 fathers...

Well it's all over now and Angel can finally relax with the one she married.. even if her heart is confused, she would never hurt him. She really does love him anyway. So she will be just fine.

Sanura has returned. but not sure yet for how long. All depends now on when she and RIJ are attacked next I guess...

We are off to a circus... I have a feeling it will be filled with surprises...

LP: Gone again?

2006-01-10T15:50:00.000-08:00

I seem to be having trouble locating my hikari more and more. Then again being married to another yami, it isn't like I should be too worried. She probably doesn't really need me that often anymore. It is time I backed off my guardianship and left it in the hands of the one it needs to be. Ori is fully capable of taking care of her and she does seem happy, even if there are times she still seems secretive about him. Sometime she is very close and cuddly with him. Then there are times where she monitors her distance to make sure she is not touching him. I am confused by this.

If I didn't respect her, I would have gone into her mind to figure out the answers for myself, but I won't. I can't do that to her. She is gone again now, but I am assuming she is with Ori. Where at.. I don't know. I just hope after everything that has been happening here, that he has taken her some place safe. And that he is treating her well.

As for what is going on here... it is so confusing. I admit I am used to seeing strange and unusual things, but this tops things so far. Apparently even those RIJ has loved but killed in the past have decided to come back and lay claim to him. Thus leading to some interesting events.

Rebecca came back to terrorize Zahara by going after the twins first. Poor Nakia and Cayden. The kids were scared out of their minds, and I know it takes a lot to scare Nakia. Then Orian was threatend again. By someone a little closer to RIJ. The woman calling herself Oriana. There was a fight that broke out upstairs that sent RIJ into the pool. Suddenly I saw Sanura racing through the house and diving directly into the pool after him without caring about her clothes getting wet. She seems freaked out. Scared. I know RIJ had a thing against water, but for Sanura to react the way she did- it leads me to believe that there is much more to that...

There was a struggle in the water and when Atemu lifted RIJ and Sanura out of the pool that Bryant had emptied to stop the underwater fight, Sanura wasn't breathing. Apparently she had taken in water at some point though I don't know just when as I had been left with Orion and was keeping him and Angel out of harm's way while Ori went to see if he could help. Bryant was able to lift the water out of Sanura's lungs and she woke up and stayed in RIJ's arms. They are a great couple when he isn't being difficult...

Then things went oddly... Zahara had interfered in that little scene and Oriana made her learn to fly in her own words. Luckily Atemu was able to stop Zahara before she crashed into the bottom of the empty pool. But she wasn't done. The battle came into the home then. And .. We all saw things we didn't care to see then nor ever again...

Oriana was informed by RIJ that the reason he had not been in contact was because he and Malik had been a pair... not that it would have stopped him.. Malik is known for his very open relationship in which as long as both sides agree others are welcomed to join him and his partner at the time.... Anyway...

Oriana didn't believe him and wanted proof... and what she got we all didn't want. I felt horribly for Sanura as she was the one most affected by it from what we could see. RIJ and Malik.... *shudders* When they were done with whatever it was they were doing (and the insanity had ended), Atem and Atemu , along with Bryant and Dorian lifted the couch and sent it outside where we proceeded to have a bonfire.

Things went well for a little while. Angel and Ori returned and seemed to be okay, though Ori did seem a little spooked. Who wouldn't... He was right in the middle of all that though... but when asked about events during the .... insanity- he did not seem to know what we were talking about. Zahara seemed to recall one thing in particular that he should have known but didn't. Then I saw Angel whispering something to Ori. he looked shocked, then concerned... then confused. They spoked quietly for a little while before a scream from Sanura inside the house caught our attention. She and RIJ had remained inside when we all came out. I am not even going to continue on why- shouldn't have to and she is my daughter... I am not really wanting to think about her and things like that...

Then Malik's girlfriend Miranda (Who had shown up with him after the whole ... event with him and RIJ) screamed form somewhere in the house... Zahara had tried to get inside but was shocked back. So Atemu opened it with his powers. By the time we got inside, RIJ was laying on the floor in his boxers and Sanura was no where to be seen... There was a crash and Oriana could be seen once again in the hallway. She was angry and dove back inside the room. Sanura let out another cry and her window was shattered. Zahara raced outside with Angel not far and we found her motionless on the ground. There was another faded figure struggling with Oriana which gave us the time we needed to concentrate on Sanura... that is .. before Téa showed up claiming her revenge on Sanura for killing her on the cruise...

Atemu stopped her.. but not before taking a knife to his side... A wound that should have killed him... But it healed on its own. He was just very tired. Atem and I had no idea Atemu had those kind of healing abilities. The kind that we have. This may mean the Atemu was blessed with some of our own abilities as well as his wife's which may help him in the end. With Oriana and Téa gone... the only 2 spirits left are Rebecca and Trixie. We are on edge as we wait to learn when they will return again.

Sanura was still having trouble sitting up when we left her to RIJ. Something had happened between the two that they need to handle... They need to learn to face whatever it is together. He needs to let his wall down for her. But it will be hard even after all this time.

I must go and see to the damage down before nightfall. I believe Atem is making plans for everyone to stay at a hotel tonight... just to keep us all out of harms way so we may finally get some rest. Otherwise, I am not sure what we will be doing.... Perhaps at least Angel will be safely taken care of where she and Ori are...

LP: Winds of Change..

2006-01-08T02:41:00.000-08:00

There seem to be plenty of changes taking place. I had to rescue my hikari from becomming a true creature of the night. That was a task and a half, but we were all glad when it worked. That Alexander really has it in for everyone to go after my hikari the way he did. If Angel had died as a result of that attack... She would have been completely changed. Luckily she didn't which spared her. But now things are becoming strange again.

Ori and Sanura were seen together. Something happened in the stairway of our home. I still am left in the dark as to what is going on, but I do know that Angel is concerned. Only time will tell on that one....

Only time will tell....

Atem: Here again...

2005-12-31T15:20:00.000-08:00

I know I am typically the quiet one, but Aurora has me worried. This thing with Angel is really bothering her but she won't talk to me about it. I won't begi to understand what Angel is facing. None of us knows what exactly even though Sanura made some kind of attempt to explain it. I know there is more going on. Aurora knows as well.

This is more than Ori just having a dark side....

And things have just gotten worse. Word just reached me that Cayden, Orion, and Sapphira were all kidnapped. It is suspected that Nakia was as well as she cannot be found. Sanura is trying to convince RIJ to leave Riza behind if he goes with her to face her one true enemy. The one that ruined their past lives.

Bakura is seeing red. Sanaura's eyes hold the look of her old self again. Only this tie fighting for the life of her son and nephew. Aurora may be joining them... Unless Nakia is found, then she will remain to keep watch over her whiel Zahara yhelps to rescue Cayden.

Sanura feels like there isn't much time...

And no one knows Alexander and his team better than her...

Atem: Baka Bakura....

2005-12-28T16:38:00.000-08:00

Yes that is what I called him... He was a part of Ryou for HOW long? Has been in the current world HOW long? And he still has so much to learn... Between Zahara, Adias and me... we had to explain to him how condoms worked...

NOT something I wanted to do with my evening...

I know Aurora posted about Angel, no need for me to post much. I will say I am worried about her. This "Dark Ori" has teh ability to break her. Has shown that he can. I worry when he will attempt to bring about the crushing blow... and if Aurora and I will be able to be there to protect Angel when and if that time comes...

LP: Shut out...

2005-12-28T16:22:00.000-08:00

I am unsure what is happening as usual. Normally I can count on my visions, but something seems to be blocking them somehow. But that is not the only thing blocked.

Recently we came to learn of a darker side to Ori. A side that... is worriesome. A side thtat never "officially" Revealed itself by name until after he and Angel were married. This darker side uses Ori's full name so we cannot, under any circumstances mention his full name even in jest. We do and ... the one Angel has taken to calling "Black Ori" or "Dark Ori" will appear and damage will be done. This is the one that hurt her the other day. This is the one who put her in such a state that she shut down.

There was a forced meeting between this "Dark Ori" and Ange. I am the one to blame for that. I had no idea he had "gone Black" on us as I had no idea this side of him existed. So Angel was face to face with him. Until Sanura went into the room and locked the door behind her. RIJ was not happy about that. And when she called him by his full name, we knew something wasn't right in there. There were shouts and cries and sounds of a fight. Finally, RIJ broke through the door and we found Ori pinning Sanura and Angel on the bed. Angel was clinging to him, pleading with him. Sanura was furiously trying to break free of him. It was only when he passed out that Sanura was able to go away.

There was great amount of silence in which I am certain Sanura and Ori were speaking to each other. He suddenly grew fearful and apolgetic to Angel. Later downstairs, Sanura explained all she knew. But this little intervention of her's came with a price. RIJ finally really laid down the law with her. Quit interfering and getting involved with things concerning his brother or be faced with the divorce papers again.

I wonder how long Sanura will let herself be controlled befre she snaps?

Angel is strong to an extent. I sensed fear coming from her again. A sense of desperation and helplessness. But she shut me from her mind link. I don't know what happened and she won't even look at me. If she does, her eyes are filled with shame. Something happened today that I am not aware of. And it has her trapped in a position she fears being in.

How long can she surivive this marriage? Will it eventually be the death of her? And at who's hand? Dark Ori's? Or her own?

LP: confused again...

2005-12-26T09:03:00.000-08:00

I don't know what is going on. I do know that Sanura and RIJ are still here- though for how long I don't know... I am enjoying the time I have with her though. Their son is adorable. I wonder just how much like his father he will be.

There was a strange incident this morning. Angel went to wake Ori to have him join us and he came down in a dark mood. He wasn't snappy, just distant. He left to go for a walk. The next thing we know we are getting a call form some bar saying he had passed out there. Angel went to go and get him. She has yet to return. She has shut down her mindlink with me though. It was clear for a moment and then suddenly there was nothing. Her thoughts and words were gone.

Sanura and RIJ left a bit ago as well as Atemu all trying to get a few things taken care of. It is good to see RIJ and Sanura getting along again. I see a very beautiful locket around her neck. I am guessing RIJ will be pretty lucky here soon enough lol.

later:
I hear a car door slam. Looking out I see Atemu climbing out of his car and going to the other side where I see that Angel is his passenger. Ori had returned just before them. He is definitely not himself... This is a side to him we have never seen. Now I wonder. Just what ter secrets is he hiding. And why isn't Angel making a move to get out of the car. RIJ and Sanura have just showed up as well. Atem and I are worried. We haven't seen Angel like this in years. Whatever happened, it wasn't good. I am not sure what happened. But I will...

And when I find out who put her into the state she is in-

Heads are going to roll...

Lady Aurora Phoenix

Merry Christmas!

2005-12-25T13:55:00.000-08:00

I won't post the karaoke thing in here as my hikari and my daughters all have. Just making a quick note that Ori and Angel are officially legally bound... I ... they are being left to their own devices now... Honeymoon time ;).

RIJ has come back.... for now. Sanura seems very happy with this. Course now she is not only a mother but a step-mother as well. RIJ reclaimed Riza for his own now that he knows she is his. Ori took that news rather hard. I have to admit. The poor guy had a rough day for his wedding. He dropped the ring down the shower drain and then got his arm stuck while trying to get the ring out... though how he managed to get his arm in the drain I still don't know... Anyway- more embarrassment- RIJ barges in and rips away his only cover. Then he proceeds to yank poor Ori until his arm is broken and then somehow gets the arm free. Ori lost consciousness then... RIJ broke him... in so many ways. His pride, his spirit, his arm, his family.... RIJ took it all from him. I wonder how that will affect things in the future. I have always known Ori to be the strong one. To see him this broken concerns me. It concerns Angel too, but she is being too kind to say anything.

Anyway- Everyone seems to be happy and getting along at the moment- I know I won't be seeing Angel for quite awhile and I hope that Violet won't be needing Ori... It will be moments like this that Ori and Angel will be glad they haven't any children to keep an eye on... I will say.... I am glad I am downstairs at the moment... *sweatdrop*

LP...

2005-12-22T02:28:00.000-08:00

Let's see- Atem and I came back fromt eh charity event to find that Sanura had left. I figured it would happen eventually. She is too stubborn and head strong.
My thoughts are easily distracted at the moment as there seems to be a problem between Angel and Ori. He came out of no where and shocked up by asking if she had ever been romantically involved with RIJ. THAT I wanted to laugh at if I hadn't been so stunned. I could never see Angel with RIJ. There is just no way. She is almost too pure for him lol. We are still waiting to see what happens, but Angel seems to be completely lost in thought. She has closed off her side of the link to me at the moment so i have no idea what is going on in her head either...

Normally I would write about my hikari... the one in the RPG anyway... but not today...

My REAL hikari is weak. But she won't speak about it. I saw a cut on her arm today... I asked her about it and all she would say was that it was an accident. I can't help but wonder if there is something else going on... Like I said, I am worried...
Unfortunately there is nothing I can do about it until she opens up. Unfortunately I don't know when, or even IF, she will...

LP: Proud...

2005-12-17T12:10:00.000-08:00

I have never been more proud of Sanura than I was tonight. She handled teh press beautifully even when it was obvious she would have rather have been everywhere but. She is beginning to show more progress in handling Orion as well which is nice to see.

I guess we will see how everything works through. She is tired, and weak. yet at the same time strong. I've no doubt she will be just fine... in time...

Cant talk more- the charity events will be beginning soon... I must leave.

LP: Decision...

2005-12-16T12:51:00.000-08:00

I was hoping this would be a nice vacation and it seems to have turned into a working one. I now have to go to public functions Pegasus was supposed to attend. Good thing Atem brought his tux and I brought along a few formal dresses. We won't be getting much alone time- but at least we can attempt to enjoy it.
I doubt Bakura and Zahara will be getting much alone time either if they keep taking Orion... Their marriage was being tested with their own twins. I don't believe Zahara would enjoy having a third one too much right now... As it stands she has been sharing turns with Marik, Angel, and Ori...

I don't know what to do with Sanura. Let her do what she needs to do I guess. She is not stable enough to be the mother she has to be for Orion. I don't know if she ever will be. Which is why I am considering the decision in my head that I am... See... Sanura changed her appearance, changed her name, changed into the stronger woman she once was before he broke her spirit. She has to be careful now though. Already she has locatd him unwittingly. She had no idea he was here in Vegas. But she found him after changing her appearance. She is with him now. He has no idea of this... but yes- she is with him. I do hope she is careful.

As for my decision... It will be a long time before Sanura comes to her senses again. Orion does not deserve to be passed around form person to person. I cannot have any children of my own... but few know this... Perhaps the King of Games would like to show off a new son...Perhaps... Sanura would not mind. She can't handle the pressures now and she knows that when things are better we can give Orion back to her.

edit:
Atem and I have spoken. he is in agreement with me over Orion. Tomorrow morning we will be going to the adoption agency...

Welcome to the family... Orion Hart... The youngest son of the former great Pharaoh of Egypt, and King of Games...

Hikari: notice...

2005-12-16T12:50:00.000-08:00

I am just coming here long enough to say that I am getting my own blog here soon. I share enough with Aurora as it is the least I can do is get my own space for my thoughts ^_^. So see you in my own place!

LP: Confused and Torn

2005-12-14T13:37:00.000-08:00

I am at a standstill. I don't know what to do.

My hikari and her fiancé, Ori (Ra that is still hard to believe....), left earlier today. They said it was to finish some Christmas shopping. But that is not where they ended up. It was a while before I heard a cry through my mental link with my hikari. There was a great deal of danger. She was begging for Blue's help.

Help Blue could not/would not apparently give.

I could hear the sound of a baby cry, My hikari told me my daughter, Sanura, was in life threatening danger. I don't know everything that is going on. But one minute I am sensing Sanura's life energy.. the next it was as if her light was snuffed out. Angel tells me through our link that it was Sanura's choice. She demanded RIJ do what he did. I am still getting sketchy details as my poor hikari is trying to block out what is happening.

Even now I watch Blue who seems to be trying to concentrate on something. She tells me that something is telling her not to let me leave to go after my daughter and my hikari. I know Ori won't let anything happen to Angel, but Sanura... It may already be too late for her. I will have to wait for when Angel returns home in order to get the details of what is happening. but I will say now what I know.

Angel and Ori went to see Sanura. A gift Ori wished to give my hikari as he knew how close she and my daughter were. There was an altercation. An arguement. One Angel feels responsible for and that is not helping her position. She was handed Orion, RIJ and Sanura's son, as Sanura went to stop RIJ from leaving. He turned on her then. He claimed that he never loved her. He was doing it to get to Atem. She told him she didn't believe him. He said he would hurt her father, from a distance. She told him that if he really wanted to hurt her father to hurt him by taking her life right then and there. Angel was hoping Sanura didn't mean it- but she knows Sanura well enough to know better.

Sanura retrieved a dagger she had purchased as a gift for RIJ and gave it to him. Told him if he was serious to end it. This was when Angel turned away to shield both herself and Orion. But she could still hear what was going on. The time I felt Sanura's life's light fade, was the point in which RIJ had slashed at her throat- after slashing her arm in an attempt to remove teh one symbol of her test of love to him. She is weak from the loss of blood.

Ori tried to stop him- to talk some sense to him as Angel retreated to a corner with Orion. My hikari thought Ori had gotten through. He may have as well... until my brother in law showed up. RIJ apprently snapped again. But since he had dropped the dagger he has taken to an alternate means of destroying Sanura. I don't know what more is going on. But I watch Blue more and more carefully. She has never held me back before. She has never done anything that would purposely hurt a member of my family before.

I can faintly hear Sanura as she says goodbye. She tells us she chose for this to happen. She was ready to accept the punishment owed to her for working for the man who took Kiza away from RIJ. She has accepted her fate with one last kiss and just waits now as he draws everything out.

We all have no choice but to wait...

LP: In shock....

2005-12-11T22:52:00.000-08:00

I am still waiting for my hikari to return home form her trip to the mall. Ori has some explaining to do. Atem and I went to where he said he would bury Sanura's body, and the ground had never been distrubed. His footprints were not even there. It boggles my mind. I leads me to believe that Atemu was right after all. Perhaps Sanura really IS alive- if that is so then why has she not returned home. And just why did Ori plan all this?

Apparently that is not the only thing he has been planning...

I knew this day would come eventually...

Atem and I ran into Atemu and we all came back home to find Ori and my hikari had left for the mall. suddenly there was a news broadcast on the TV. Seems they had a run in with Kaiba. I bad one. First the taunting was purely verbal... but then Kaiba grew nasty and began to hurt my hikari. I stod, ready to go to the mall to stop that. She has been hurt enough in her past. She didn't need that kind of treatment. Apparently Ori agreed. He finally snapped and the fight turned physical.

Eventually, Kaiba let go and, being the romantic she is, it became a my hero moment, only her fears had kicked in and she buried her face in his chest. He held her. then smirked into the camera. Atem made some offhand, rude comment about it that I will not repeat...

Anyway- as we watch he gently places he in a chair and asks her to marry him. She of course said yes. This was on national TV...

This still doesn't change that we have serious questions for him... We do still have them and we will see that they are answered....

But I am glad to see my hikari smile a genuine smile finally... It had been too long. Just treat her right, Ori... and she will be the best wife anyone could have ever hoped for and then some. I wish you the best of luck...

Hikari: curious...

2005-12-10T14:22:00.000-08:00

Yes I am hijaking Aurora's blog again...

I can't help but seem to find stronger feelings for Ori every day. Riza is a dream... except for the fact that she is almost too much like RIJ... Yes we finally figured it out when she flat out refused the bath saying she hated water...The hair, the eyes, the hate for water... yes- she is RIJ's child... Ori doesn't want him to know though so we haven't said anything. He fears RIJ will try to take Riza from him. As Riza's biological father, he could too.

Speaking of Ori though... I know he is hiding something from me. Something he and Blue are up to. They keep leaving with odd excuses. It has something to do with RIJ... at least partly. Then I heard Aurora say that she could still sense Sanura... Ori froze.

If they are hiding something about RIJ and Sanura... I fear what the result could be... happiness if the 2 live... but anger for keeping them away from the rest of the family... I hope they know what they are doing...

LP: Mourning...

2005-12-10T14:11:00.000-08:00

This house is not a home of celebration for the holidays as it should be. We are in mourning. I am not up to speaking a great deal about things so this post will be brief and too the point.

Sanura miscarried the baby. Dorian buried it at her favorite spot on the cliff. A small cross marks it's resting place. She would have had a baby boy. She had changed the name she was going to give the child from Keegan to Orion. She felt Orion was a better suited name. She did not take it very well at all. And then things got worse.

RIJ came to speak with her. The next thing we all know- she is paniking. Seems my vision of a dagger had been a prediction of the future. We entered teh room to find her huddled over his body. There was a wound in his chest. She said he told her that if she loved him, she would make the pain stop by putting the dagger through his heart. After a great hesitaion- she did just that. Blue now mourns his death... at least she seems to be...

Just when we think things can't get any worse- she uses her mystical energies to mask the pain and speed up her recovery. She had just enough for herself to heal and not the child or else she would have helped them both when she had a chance. After she had her energy back- she went to a club and had a few too many drinks. Marik and Zahara brought her home and laid her to bed. Ori showed up then, asking for her.

The next thing I know he is calling for help. We enter the room again and find that she is no longer breathing. In one day we lose a baby, a son in law, and a daughter. Ori took her body to bury t besdie her child. Atemu took it harder than Atem and I seem to be taking it.

There is an odd feeling... I can still sense her. It is as if she is not dead after all. A part of me can at least hope. And wonder if she is happier where she is...

LP: sigh

2005-12-08T11:37:00.000-08:00

My hikari... I love her but she is a pain sometimes...

She decided to use MY blog for her purpose...

Oh well. She is right- Sanura did miscarry. Too much stress and blood loss... She will never be the same after this. This could have been her last shot at being a mother. I am on edge with RIJ up there... I keep having a vision of a dagger... But I don't know yet what it means... He said he wanted to speak to her alone... I just hope he doesn't do anything that could hurt her more. She has been through too much as it is...

Hikari speaks her piece...

2005-12-08T11:11:00.000-08:00

Yup... that's right- I have hijaked my Yami's and her husband's blog to post a few things. I don't write enough to really keep one of my own- so their's works.

A quick recap... Sanura is.. not in the best of shape. She lost a lot of blood which Aurora tells me to the miscarriage of the baby. Dorian says it is likely she will never be able to have another. her one and only chance to be a mother just floated out the door with angel's wings... She took it really hard. Took her a couple hours of non-stop tears. I know Aurora and Atem stayed with her for quite a while... I am not entirely sure how long though...

Ori and I... well... I am not exactly sure what all is really there. I am honored that he asked me to be Riza's mother. I always gave him such a hard time. But I mean hard as in joking around. I was never mean to him at all. I think that eventually led to something. Who knows. All I know is that Atemu pulled a stunt that led to a not so bad situation.

Ok... Ori is a perv. I will grant him that. His eyes drift away to follow other women, he makes his comments about them... I expected him to jump me the first chance he got me alone- yet he was really good. He never once made a move- not that he wasn't tested *smirk* Even had him sandwiched between Vanessa and myself. He was so flustered he couldn't think straight. I actually enjoyed that date so I am reminded to thank Atemu one day. I guess one of his tricks ACTUALLY worked lol.

I wish I could say the date ended well... We were teh ones to find RIJ with Sandy... We tried to get back to the house before Sanura found out... but it was too late. She had already seen them together. RIJ still swears up and down he did nothing wrong. The dense yami has it in his head thet Sandy was actually Sanura... Not much we can do about that... Any way- that night Sanura's pain grew worse as she fought with RIJ... Riza had called Sanura her mother and was upset when Sanura didn't stick around after the fight. It was right about then that Ori turned and asked me if I would be her mother... He didn't ask my hand in marriage or anything... Just asked me to be her mother... I am wondering if there was something more to that question... He passed out not long after and when Sanura returned from where she went, she said something about the one day starting... I guess when Ori and RIJ give their hearts to someone they have one day for people to be around them as they see just whom they can trust and whom they can't... I guess lucky for me Sandy wasn't around...

So now I am a mother... And Riza is just so adorable. So polite too. I couldn't have asked for a better daughter. Ori isn't so bad to be around. He is quiet... But he is warming up a bit. He does't blush as much when I give him a hug or a kiss. Malik did get on my nerves a bit though... but nothing we can do about him either lol.

RIJ is up with Sanura now... Somehow Zahara convinced him to talk to her. Aurora is on edge though... She keeps saying that something isn't right. Not aloud, but I can hear her thoughts through our mindlink. She is worried about Sanura being with RIJ alone. Especially with how fragile Sanura is now... It is quiet upstairs though... no shouting... I am staying beside Ori while this is going on. Don't get me worng, I can protect myself... But... Sometimes it is nice to be the damsel in distress... I sense great power in Ori... Power I have yet to actually see. I know he can fight- I saw him fight with Sanura... he had just never been up against a master assassin... So I will be more than happy to let him be my knight from time to time....

I will continue to hope and pray that Sanura can handle this miscarriage... And hope that things can work out between her and RIJ...

Okay- I think I spammed my Yami's blog up enough... I have .... someone who could probably use a back rub to take care of...*smirks and skips away.*

Atem: my turn...

2005-12-07T13:48:00.000-08:00

I don't have a tendency to write here. I just happen to be busy trying to gather thigns together and keep peace. But I write now because Aurora asked me to. She is not handling news of the decision Sanura has to make very well. And Sanura is struggling with the choice. There are severa options avaialable to her...

She can leave and have the baby in secret- but her disappearance would be hard to explain if her ever finds he cares enough to know. She can pretend she lost the baby and go one with life as she normally would. Again having the baby in secret so RIJ would never know... The problem would be explaining where the baby came from. Aurora and Angel began discussing a few options if Sanura went with this choice. Aurora has told only a few people that she is unable to have children thanks to Anubis while she was pregnant with the triplets. But she is willing to see if she can look into something that would make them believe teh child was mine and hers. Another option would be for Angel to... claim it for her own- but that would require an action to happen between her and ORi and I am doubting that has happened... Though I am certain it wouldn't take much to convince him to follow through. But this choice would also require him knowing what was going on and being open to the idea of taking another of RIJ's children...

Yes I said another. We are all certain that Riza is his. But her background is still sketchy. We are learning a little more everything- but some key pieces are missing. She has RIJ's hair coloring... her eyes aren't AS gold, but they do have the tone to them. She must have received her mother's soft personality though. She is adorable... There is no way she CAN'T be RIJ's though... What we can't figure out is why he didn't know...

Anyway- back to what I was saying... I know Zahara would take the child in a heartbeat if it came down to it. I am alos certain Bakura wouldn't mind. He has always been good to his own. And by keeping the child in the family, Sanura could still watch the child grow and be a part of it's life.

Those are options she can go with if she follows through with having the child- though it could cost her own life to do so. She has already lost a great deal of blood. Dorian and Aurora have been using their powers to try to stop the flow- but it isn't working as well as they hoped. Sapphira and Natara are being called now...

There is only one other option... and if she takes it- she will never have children again...

That will crush her- shatter her heart... she wants to be honest to RIJ- she wants to tell him everything- she wants to have his child... but she wants him to be a part of the child's life and he can't.

Dorian is calling for us now... She has to decide what she is doing. Is she chooses to keep the child he has one last option to save her life. It is a last resort- but it is all he can do.

I hate to say this...

But she is almost better off not haveing the child and letting Osiris take it's soul to be guarded there...

As for my true feelings on RIJ... I am not going to speak my mind at this time... My worry for my daughter took precedence here.

LP: Fear the Worst

2005-12-06T15:13:00.000-08:00

I have returned. I wish it could be with good news. If any have been keeping an eye on my daughters... and even my brother's law's blogs, then they know by now that my oldest daughter, Sanura is in critical condition at the moment. She has not let on that anything is actually wrong. She is too strong for that. She would rather let everyone belive that everything is just fine and she is doing well.

They don't see the fear in her eyes with every stab of pain. They don't feel the strength leaving her as she struggles for control and to keep everything right. She hides her pain well. Until everyone leaves her room. Then the tears fall as her fear, and sadness take control. This is the first time she has actually had the true feeling of being a mother. The first time the illness took that idea from her. She had never had the chance to experience it as it was never there. But this time is worse. She HAS a child now. And it ... *looks down*

She knows what is coming and she is handling it very well considering. Zahara seems to think that Sanura has an alternate plan if she does lose this child. A plan that Zahara is not sure is the best thought. My own personal opinion is that Sanura has thrown herself into a world that makes it easier for her to handle the changes that are coming. A world where she will not feel the emotions connected with the loss of a child. The loss of her love...

That is what this boils down to. She needs his love to get through this and he can't truly give it. It is not his fault and she knows this. But that doesn't help matters at all. Her blood loss has been too great to sustain the child to term. It is another fact she and Dorian have managed to conceal from everyone- until now... The truth will come to light soon... Then RIJ will be faced with a new question... If the baby is lost will he return to her? If he does, she will know what is keeping them from being together. Then she will have to decide. Does she give up her dream of being a family just to keep him and be happy? Or does she let him go and follow her dream to another who can love her completely, with all his heart and soul and give her the family she seeks? If she chooses the 2nd one... Will she be able to ever love the new guy as fiercly as she loves RIJ?

LP: Highly Amused....

2005-12-02T10:21:00.000-08:00

I have to admit I am greatly amused by the events of this day lol.
I always knew the my hikari would get hers for toying with Ori's mind. And she did. Big time.

We now have anotehr little girl around the home. Ori adopted one and brought her home. Beautiful little girl. The problem is she latched onto Sanura which is driving RIJ insane. Rij always had a problem with Ori... but the fact that Sanura and Ori have grown to become friends is striking him hard. So a group of us decided to create a bit of a distraction. Atemu pulled out 3 straws of different lengths as we decided to create a small game to find out who would win a date with Ori. The choices were my hikari, AFG's Yami, Vanessa, and my friend Sapphira. Atemu told them it would be for TV priveleges for a week. My hikari isn't much for TV but she shrugged and took her straw, as did Sapphira and Vanessa. They all looked and my hikari was the one with the shortest straw. That was when Atemu gave her the news. That she had one a date with Ori. She fell over in shock. She still can't believe it.

He took it quite well actually. Even dazzeled her with a rose out of thin air. I do have my worries... She has been hurt a great deal in teh past and present... the last thing she wants is someone toying with her heart. So I am hoping we didn't make a mistake in setting her up with him. I do admit the way they have been at each other lately... It is kind of like puppy love- *grin* They tease and taunt each other but never in a hurtful way. They were just recently supposed to be paired togather for a play on a site we are on and she kept running from him. But I could sense her thoughts through our link... OOO Ori- if you only knew lol.

Sanura is handling the pregnancy the best she can. She does feel like she is on her own... That RIJ won't be a part of their child's life. She has a great deal of fear. And she is angry with him as well. She values her friendship with Ori for some reason. RIJ is insistant that she stay away form his brother. Sanura has been quiet. I can see her mind at work. Ori said something to her that has made her very preoccupied. All she would say was one day when he gives his heart... One day. Now I am taking that to mean that she is feeling bad for him because he hasn't anyone and now he has a daughter as well. But a small part of me tells me there is something more to this. I suppose it will come out eventually... I just hope she knows what she is doing...

LP: Should be interesting...

2005-11-28T22:28:00.000-08:00

Sanura has been quiet lately. She has been acting a little off. She has been passing off questions right and left, always with some kind of an answer that tells others to either drop it or her answers are just vague enough they work...

Hikari is listening to Evanescence again. This time the song is My Immortal. She .. her moods have been bouncing. One minute she is hyper and the next she is very quiet and sub-dued. I knew her husband said some hurtful things today. I feel for her. I know he never used to be this way toward her. I can only do what I can to protect her. Her choices are her own. She is feeling abandoned and as if she has abandoned others. She feels she has tried too hard to be there when she may have just been needing someone to latch on to for her own. Several times I have gone to her and she just clings to me.

I have seen the changes in RIJ. He has been able to see some of the things that go on here with his own eyes. He is not happy. He has even told her that he would be there for her. She is greatful for that. the torch she carries is weakening however. She is quickly losing faith and heart. I hear her now... I must go to her...

LP: Not sure...

2005-11-25T14:07:00.000-08:00

Things seem to be okay between RIJ and Sanura. They enjoy the time they have together. But Sanura, as much as she loves him, she fears she is taking him away from his true duty... His responsibility to Blue. She does not wish to do that for she knows the responsibilty of a Yami. Cayden has been quiet and on his own a lot. Nakia likes to tease and torment him. Sanura has sort of adopted him as her hikari hoping to ease the stress that Zahara is facing. She never realized how much stress having a family with the Theif King would bring. The poor girl is constantly on the look out for Nakia who seems to have adopted her father's old habits. With a few of her mother's pwoers combined. I don't envy my daughter on bit...

I am really not sure how to fix what is wrong now. Normally, I do what I can to keep my hikari calm. But that was when she reached out to me. She now blocks our link more times than not. She has debated cutting... nothing serious, but something so she can release the pain. I have already stopped her once. She seems better. She likes to wear mask. But as things grow colder at home, she retreats farther and farther. Her mother is ill... That isn't helping things at all. I must keep my eye on her though... She is getting better, but she has a very long battle to fight. And it will not be an easy one at all...

LP: Worried

2005-11-21T08:36:00.000-08:00

So many things are happening in my Hikari's life. Not many of them good.

She had a glorious visit with one of her interent friends and just glowed from finally meeting face to face, something she had been interacting with for almost a year now. They were like 2 giggling high school girls at a slumbar party for 2 Friday night. It was good to see her be a little crazy and just have fun.

She doesn't get that way very often. Few around here share her interests and she feels like an outsider. It doesn't help her husband isn't the most supportive. He knows me by name, but he has no idea how many times she has left me to face off with him because he has her so emotionally drained she can't really connect anymore... That is the part that scares me...

Atem and I were watching the twins for Zahara so she could get a break when dark thoughts came across teh link I share with my light.... These dark thoughts are thoughts that had drawn me to her to begin with. They weren't filled with wanting death, so much as just wanting something that was HERS..... And she would have settled for anything, including the razor she had attempted to take to her arms. Not her wrists... just her arms... Luckily, I was able to get to her and sit her down in our little space of oblivion to talk. She gazed lovingly at that razor. It took forever for me to finally convince her to let go of the razor. She threw it in the shower and then she just broke down on me.

She has been with holding things from our link. Seems she is getting better at hiding from me even. I am truly surprised this passed through to me. But I am glad it did so I could stop her. I now know I must keep a closer watch on my hikari. She has been broken and beaten emotionally for far too long. She is ready to give up and I can't let her. Too many people need her. Too many people love her.

LP: Very confused...

2005-11-13T04:28:00.000-08:00

Ok... I think my Hikari has finally lost her mind...

I think...

The other day we were visiting with Blue, and Ryou and all the others when Ori became the topic of conversation... as he always seems to be.... Anyway- I get this od thought in my head thanks to her. She is plotting something... Or at least was. She gave me this smirk and the next thing I know she is toying with him. He seemed confused. No one could tell if he liked what was happening or not... I know I couldn't tell and I am pretty good at judging things like that...

Anyway...

One minute she is standing there looking at him, the next minute she kisses him... O_O.. talk about jaw hitting the floor shock. He couldn't move... I don't know if he wanted to or not... he was just... dazed... He is the type like RIJ to not care if he hurts anyone or not, so I know he didn't just sit there to spare her feelings...

The whole room got silent. Blue fell over and then Ori did as well as my hikari took off laughing... But there was something else in her mind when that happened... I am still trying to figure it out. She has been quietly thinking since then. She still toys with him now and then but always from the other side of the room... She doesn't let herself go near him anymore. She won't tell me why either. He hasn't really said anything... he gets flustered about it. He still insists on liking this Sandy girl... but he now acts all strange whenever my hikari is in the room... Makes me wonder if there is some kind of secret being kept... Or if he is deciding to play the game little Hikari had begun...

I think she is in over her head this time if he decides to play.... I don't think she can handle him as well as she may think she can... In fact... I am certain of it...

LP: Unsure

2005-10-31T06:47:00.000-08:00

I can feel it. My hikari isn't speaking much again. She seems to be avoiding everything. Meaning I am probably going to be taking care of things for her today. I don't mind. It will be good for me and she needs her rest. She has had a lot on her mind. And she is not ready to speak. When she is I will be ready to listen. But she must be ready. I can't force it out of her. I know she worries. She is afraid of something. Just what exactly it is she is afraid of though I cannot be completely sure.

Sometimes she has too soft a heart. One that is easily bruised. She is very aware that others need her. She tries so hard. But sometimes I wonder if she tries too hard. She is retreating within herself now to think a few things over. So now I guess it is my turn to take over. I just hope things get better for her soon. I hope whatever is worrying her can and will clear itself up. She worries me when she is like this...

Another Wedding...

2005-10-28T19:32:00.000-07:00

Well it is finally official. RIJ and Sanura have gotten married. Took them long enough... But it was just something really simple which suited the both of them. I don't think I have ever seen them so happy...

At least- unless Ori is around. Ori is Violet's Yami... He is as perverted as they come- always watching women through their windows while sitting under a tree. I would like to think there is a reason behind this- like he is searching for something other than a cheap thrill, but as we still know nothing about him, we can only go so far with speculation. There is something about him, that wakes the long dormant fire inside Sanura. It frightens her to no end. She nearly killed him the other day- not exactly something he deserved, but he deserved pain for his words and his treatment to Zahara and Bakura's daughter Nakia. He just... He knows just what to say- but it makes me wonder why? He knows her reaction... Could he be doing it to just get her near him? Is he really that perverse or hard up that he would have her angry enough to attack him just to hold her? He may be... No one ones what exactly the fascination with him to her is... It is possible she just happens to remind him of someone else... very possible...

I wonder what he will really feel when he learns she is never returning to the house. It seems she promised he would never see her again if he came back to Violet and helped her. So she thought she would have to leave RIJ as well. Luckily he found her and they found a home of their own. A nice mansion on the beach that has been abandoned for years now... With her flare for decor, she will really have it looking nice, I know it. I also wonder if she realizes how much longer they have as just a couple.... I had a vision of a family for them... a small one- but a family no less.. not for a while yet... but it is coming one day...

Atem hasn't said much. he is happy that RIJ and Sanura were finally married. But he worries how things will go. He is being a father after all... What father wouldn't worry when their daughter falls for a Yami..... let alone both of them... and with one daughter having the hands of 2 Yami's at her pleasure.... It is a scary thought... But I know her heart... She will never turn RIJ away- she will hurt anyone who tries to take him from her or her from him...

LP: Quiet Hikari

2005-10-08T12:36:00.000-07:00

As the title says my hikari has been quiet today. Lost in her thoughts. Her head is full of things at the moment. Not exactly sure what she is focusing on the most right now... She has a few ideas for some inspirational pieces she wants to work on and some things she wants to do to her web site... But otherwise... I know something worries her. She won't exactly let me in enough to really know though. This is the first time in a long time she has really shut me out. I am trying to be there for her but to push would be against her wishes so I back off... She will tell me when she feels ready...

As for Sanura:
We found her... Or rather Blue's Yami Ori found her. It has been about a week since she went missing. Well she has been back for a week, she was only gone for a day.... Dorian learned from the tests done that she is not expecting afterall. But she was exteremely ill. A rare sickness that only hits my kind. It was a long week as we waited for her to regain consciousness... But she seems better now... She and RIJ have not left the room much.. He has from time to time, but they have just been sitting and quietly talking. Or just holding each other. There is still a small feel of tension in the air. There is still some secret that has yet to be revealed... Something bad looms over head. Something that may lead to why my hikari has been so quiet...

LP: Could be a problem...

2005-10-06T05:36:00.000-07:00

Well... I met Blue's new Yami Ori yesterday... I am not so sure I like him at all... Atem reminded me that I didn't like RIJ at first either... But he changed. I am hoping that this will be the case with ORI, but that might not happen for a while yet...

The problem is that now that Blue has a 2nd Yami- one has to go away... The question becomes- which one...

Sanura is scared to death that RIJ will be the one to leave. She came into my room last night and Atem and I felt like she was 3 years old again laying her head on our laps and crying. She cried so hard... All we could do was hold her... I don't know what we can do, but we have to find some why to keep RIJ around... I am afraid of what will happen if he leaves this realm...

My hikari has offered her own self to being his hikari if he can and needs to switch... She doesn't really like it- but she is using it as a possibility... My brother in law... He is really not liking what he has learned of Ori... I think RIJ now has an ally in him... Possibly even a friend as well...

I saw the way RIJ held Sanura last night... He knows someting is wrong. He can feel it. But he knows that she is not ready to talk about it.. or he thinks it is about the fact that he has not quite agreed to eloping... That has made a good cover for her to hide what she knows... She hates not telling him. But she promised Blue she wouldn't say anything... But he still just held her close to him, his head rested on hers... His eyes closed... He loves her, I know it... If he only knew what they were to face... Would he hold her tighter still- or push himself away from everyone...?

LP: Quick post..

2005-10-05T11:18:00.000-07:00

Zahara had her twins today!!! A boy and a girl. Nakia and Cayden. Both beautiful... I will have to post again when I have more time... Right now my hikari needs my help... and Sanura has her hands full with RIJ... So it is me to the rescue again... *shrug* Oh well... That's what I am here for...

LP:Our trip... Yes.. very interesting- Day by Day...

2005-10-03T15:12:00.000-07:00

Written Sept. 25th
My poor Hikari… She’s had a very rough week. 1st dealing with the move, and then the extra yamis… Her kids are giving her fits. She claims they aren’t listening to her and she is trying so hard to keep them in line. We are staying with her mother in her mother’s boyfriend’s house. The boyfriend uses the house as a model for his business so a level of cleanliness is needed. This is where the problem comes in. Instead of relaxing, she is on edge. I feel her struggling to keep control when she really wants to snap. RIJ and Bakura… and even Atem and myself, I will admit, haven’t made this trip very restful for her. Add a moody Zahara and an adventurous Sanura into the mix and yeah, she is pushing her sanity.
We are all going out to dinner now. I will write more later.

Sept. 26th - morning
Yes, I do write more than Atem. He is busy trying to keep an eye on the rest of the family. Which is a job and a half with Sanura and Zahara. My Hikari just put her daughters to bed. She is trying to get some rest herself now. Sanura and Zahara got into a spat though that just about drove Angel crazy. Apparently Sanura thought that something Zahara said meant that Zahara thought Sanura might be expecting as well. Sanura and I know that the pregnancy has gone o Zahara’s head. I have yet to really have a vision of a family for Sanura. I have a hard time picturing RIJ as a father for that matter…
Angel finally had enough of listening to them and stepped in. She called Bakura to take Zahara away before something happened they would all regret ad she dragged Sanura away as well. Apparently she has plans for Sanura and a child isn’t in the picture yet… and I stress the word yet… Probably waiting on RIJ. But that could be another Millennia before that happens.
I suppose I should get some rest before we leave. I will write again later.

Sept. 26th – evening
Another poor Hikari post. She was ready to leave, yet she wasn’t. Well… wasn’t awake enough to leave that is. She and Sanura had a chat this morning while she put gas in the car. I guess they have things settled. Angel basically told her she wanted to forget what happened- don’t blame her. Ice could easily have stayed frozen in the car after everyone had climbed inside this morning. Luckily things are different now. The trip became fun considering- singing, laughing. Angel’s high point in the trip today was talking to AFG on the cell phone. I can tell how much she misses everyone. She can’t wait to get back online. As for now… *looks around* We are stopped just outside of Des Moines, Iowa. Looks like this is where we are staying for the night. Good, Angel needs the rest. I can sense her exhaustion. I only hope my strength will help to get her through this trip…

Sept. 27th
My hikari’s day started out good but in about 2 hours that changed. We are all stuck in a McDonald’s parking lot near Des Moines about 10 miles from where we stayed the night. Her husband’s truck lost its clutch and being it is a stick shift vehicle; the clutch is needed in order to continue on with the trip. So we (Sanura, Zahara, and I), are trying to help her with her active daughters while we (including Atem) are trying to keep Adais, RIJ, and Bakura out of trouble. Yes, that’s right. The 2 yamis welcomed Adais into their group. Now I am worried. Poor Yugi won’t know hi father when we get back. Anyway… Because of this set back, Angel will be driving pretty much all night. This is going to be one of those days. I am doing everything I can to keep her calm now… But I am not sure it will work this time…

Sept. 28th – mid-day
Today is going much better. I am writing really quick while at a rest stop. We are in Wyoming now. In 3 hours we should be in Montana. We should only have about 7 more hours of driving or so for today. Then we rest again.
Bakura felt at home in the Badlands. Reminded him of his King of Thieves days back in Egypt. RIJ liked the Devil’s Tower Monument. Zahara and Sanura liked 1880 Town- the old western town that was used in the movie Dances with Wolves.. It was a beautiful drive. Well- time to go again. I will write again when we stop for the night.

Sept. 28th – evening
Well, that was fun. I had to take over the wheel a few times. One time took us all by surprise. Zahara had been resting when Angel began to rub her neck, claiming it is stiff. The next thing we knew, Bakura had reached from the backseat and began to rub her neck. When Zahara woke up, he stopped to tend to his wife. Angel’s neck was still bothering her, I could feel it. This was the major shock. She was reaching up to rub her neck again when she was stopped by fingers already touching her neck. She glanced up in the mirror and I could tell she was expecting someone like Adais or Atem or even me…. But it was none of us. RIJ had actually reached forward to give the light massage. She said she felt strange not long after he started. It was calming, she said. She compared it to like the feeling that comes with my healing powers. Unfortunately, it put her to sleep. If I hadn’t taken over when I did, we would have gone off a mountainous ledge. But we are safe and sound now at a Holiday Inn. Only about 5 or 6 more hours to go and then our trip ends. Then we just have to help get my Hikari and her family settled in their new home. Then Bakura and RIJ will be headed back to their Ryou and Blue. I know the 2 have enjoyed the past 2 weeks without their yamis but we all knew they had to return eventually. I am glad that the trip seemed to go so well for RIJ and Sanura. Guess time will tell just how good it really was for them.

Sept. 29th
It seems my Hikari has her sense of humor again. Could have something to do with the fact that we are in Washington finally. She is resting and trying to get used to the time difference. She should be getting her new home tomorrow, then the plan is to call and get cable, phone, and internet so we can get back to normal. I know that is something that will make everyone feel better. Angel really misses everyone. She got to talk to AFG the day we left Michigan and then CM called her while we were in South Dakota. She would have loved to talk to CM longer than she did, but her minutes ran too low for her. She felt horrible because she missed chatting with her friends and she had so badly wanted to keep the conversation going. Soon enough though. She will be online soon enough.

Sept. 30th
She has a house!! She’s excited but then was hit hard with a headache so I had to take control once again. It’s nice. A fenced in back yard and a clothes line. 3 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms. A nice area she and her husband are turning into an office area. Nice sized living room and dining room. She may have to get a new bed though. The master bedroom is a little smaller than her last house. The area seems pretty nice as well, so far. We are just waiting on the final paperwork to be done so we can get the calls made to get everything hooked up. She is thanking her God for His hand in keeping everyone safe and helping everyone get her. Now all she has to do is get settled in. Once her things arrive, that shouldn’t take too long. Just a matter now of where everything will go. But she is creative so I have faith that she will figure something out. Well time to get acquainted with out new home. Later!

Oct. 1st
Calls are made and Cable and Internet will be hooked up on Monday afternoon. Her things will arrive on Tuesday and she will have a phone sometime between Thursday and Friday. Things are looking good. Just busy. Getting arranged in a new home is a lot of work. But with all of us here, we should be able to help get her settled. Well… Everyone except Zahara. I have seen the twins arriving very soon. I have sensed her discomfort and feel for her. I know what it is like to carry more than one child. These twins will be strong as well. After surviving an explosion at 2 weeks, then the stress of Alexander and DR and nearly losing Sanura to an explosion as well… This trip… Yes, even I can be amazed that the twins lasted so close to the end of term. And then Sanura and RIJ. They have been enjoying these last few days together. It will be hard for her to see him leave to return to Blue. But they won’t be apart long I am sure. As for me… I am reconnecting with Atem again. We are even discussing possibly renewing our vows sometime in a more traditional manner. I think it sounds pretty fun actually. But for now I am going to go to bed while I can. It won’t be long before another busy day begins.

LP: Checking on...

2005-09-18T11:26:00.000-07:00

It's been a busy 3 days. So many activities. I admit my hikari sure knows how to plan a trip. She and I have been doing a lot of talking. She grew worried over Blue's warning about RIJ. It has taken my hikari a long time to gain the confidence she now has. She has been through a lot. I may be her darker half- her yami, and I may like to play around and get into things myself, but I would never let any harm befall her. I would do anything to protect her. So far it seems that RIJ is actually to preocupied to cause her any problems. The only real problem we had was when he and Bakura got lost on the military base. Took a very long time to find them too lol.
Then there was dune buggie racing and jumping. That was a lot of fun actually. And I am proud of Sanura. She drove that dune buggie just as wildly as teh guys and won every race she entered.
We had a nature walk that was very calming. My Hikari received her shock during that walk. Bakura stopped her and thanked her for allowing everything to happen the way it did. For allowing me to be reborn and reunite with Atem so that our children could be... This enabled him to have Zahara. There was a moment he called for me as she came down with a small fever. He is so afraid that something is going to happen to her and/or the twins. I haven't told him or Zahara this, but I do see no problems with this. In fact- I see 2 more children in their future before they are done...

I did have an interesting chat with RIJ... He actually soought me out. I was surprised. Out of respect for him though, I won't put the details of our chat in here... or anywhere. He is too reserved a person to really want things like this put out on the public view... I am guessing whatever I said must have done something for him though... Things sure changed for him and Sanura. It is obvious their relationship has taken on a new level. They seem .. almost peaceful together. They haven't fought once this whole trip.I have noticed he has become a little more possessive of her though. Not exactly a bad thing as of yet, but I am just wanting to make a note of it. Yes... The rest of the days of this trip will be interesting indeed...

LP: Time to go

2005-09-11T21:55:00.000-07:00

Atem is too busy to write tonight as he goes over the last of the details for the trip. We will be gone now for almost a month so I doubt I will be updating much. The girls are really excited. I love to see them like this. All giddy and happy. Sanura is walking around as if in constant dreamland... Zahara is doing well and ready fir the break. We will have to be careful with her. It wont be long before she is due to have those twins. But that is a post for another day. I must go now and finsih getting our vehicle loaded. Bakura and RIJ should be arriving at the airport at any time. Atem has already sent a limo on to pick them up. Sanura went with it so they could be sure it was really for them lol.

I guess then this is good bye for now...

LP: getting ready...

2005-09-07T16:32:00.000-07:00

Well a trip is coming for us and RIJ and Bakura are willingly packing their bags to join us. It will be nice to get to know RIJ a little more. I know he is really a more reserved kind of man. More to himself. There is a major difference between the pairing of RIJ and Sanura to Zahara and Bakura. Sanura and RIJ tend to keep most of their affections under wraps stealing kisses when they think no one is looking and being more... well.. reseverd I guess is the only word for it. Bakura and Zahara are wild about each other and not willing to hide it. Open inuendoes and wild flirtatious ways.. They are the perfect couple that everyone loves to hate- the sickenly sweet couple. But I love seeing how happy they are together. Now that things are settled between RIJ and Sanura, I can see the happiness between them as well. Yes... this will be a nice trip.

A FAMILY trip.

Wow- Who knew our family would turn out like this...?

Atem: Company...

2005-09-07T16:25:00.000-07:00

Word got out last night that Zahara, Sanura, Aurora and I would be going on a trip that would take us away for about a month. Bakura and RIJ actually reacted stronger to that announcement than I thought. In the end they decided they were packing their bags and getting ready to join us. I don't mind the extra company. It will keep the girls occupied and with Zahara in the condition that she is... It would be a good thing that Bakura is there with her. And RIJ- I am amazed at the turn around in him. I couldn't be more proud to be ready to welcome him as my son into this family.

Lady Aurora- update

2005-09-06T12:16:00.000-07:00

Not much of a change to really report. Things seems to be going fairly smoothly. Sanura and RIJ still seem to be happy and are just trying to find time to begin plans on the wedding... Zahara's pregnancy is coming along as well. She is in month 7 now. only 2 more to go- but knowing how mulitple births go it will happen sooner than her due date I am pretty certain that things will go smoothly. She finally has names for them . he daughter is Nakia Amane, and the sone is Cayden Atem. Yes, Atem is honored that Bakura allowed the son to have his name somewhere in the name set. It seems they are getting along just fine actually... I like to see things finally going in a decent direction.
I will come back again when I have more word on everyone...

Atem: so when...

2005-08-29T17:34:00.000-07:00

When will the wedding be is the ? on the minds of Aurora and me. It is obvious that things are much better. Sanura has passed RIJ's test and it seems that finally things are going somewhere. I am just wondering how much money I am setting aside for this.. Zahara's and Bakura's wasn't exactly cheap... but well worth it to see my daughter smile... I will look forward to giving my daughter's hand to RIJ... He is a good man.. if only just a little lost still. He can still find his way. There is a shining light for him now. A light admittedly was never there before. But I have seen the difference in Sanura. Aurora and I discussed it last night even. Ra's light was seen around her. Now if only she can let go of the past- her innocence will never completely be restored. Not after everything she has done. But the gods have forgiven her and saw fit to bless her once again as she makes attempt after attempt to make up for the wrongs she committed under Alexander's control. I do hope that is enough for RIJ.

Who knew I would be caling him my son in law... Then again- who knew I would have the Theif King as my son in law as well... So I guess anything is possible. As long as my daughters are safe, happy and loved. That is all I care for them now. I am certain that RIJ and Bakura- no matter how evil they had been in the past... and what they may do in the future, they will always take great care in seeing my daughters are safe and cared for. I guess that is all I can hope for. So I wish them the best...

LP: A new chance...

2005-08-29T17:21:00.000-07:00

It seems that things are better now. Zahara is still going about the pregnancy just fine. She is handling the changes just fine- though I admit it is strange seeing her as big as she is. With twins I have to wonder just how big I was looking with the triplets lol. The months are coming closer to time now. I can just imagine how excited they are. I know what Atem was like when I was expecting. We spent several nights just lying in bed. He would stroke my hair and keep saying the most beautiful things to me. I wonder if Bakura does the same...

Sanura and RIJ seem to finally be happy. Still in different places though anyone can feel the sexual tension between them... When they are finally ready- look out world... lol. She would kill me to know I had written that but it is so obvious after everything they have been through. Aside from the wedding, that is about all they have left to do to officially commit to each other. Really though in all seriousness... It is nice to see them smile. Especially to see them smile at each other. I am a romantic at heart- though I don't often show it. I hurt for her when she went through everything. Then I hurt for him when I heard his story. 2 people going through such similar experiences... Finally can attempt to help each other heal.

Now about that wedding......... *grins*

Atem- yeah

2005-08-23T13:18:00.000-07:00

You will see that I don't write often. I am busy with things and it doesn't exactly leave me a lot of extra time.

I did eventually see fit to give RIJ the last family Ring to be given. I just hope I didn't make a mistake this time. I watched his actions last night. I wonder if he will remember what he put Sanura through come morning. He called her another woman's name as he was lost in his memories. She handled it pretty well actually. On the outside anyway. Her eyes told another story if he was to look up. Tears in her eyes that she refused to let fall. I have seen her slowly moving around the house today. Her chest still bothers her where her bandages are and the burns there are taking their time to heal. But she seemed okay otherwise. I guess we can only sit and watch everything as it unfolds again.

As for Zahara: Yes, I am greatly looking forward to seeing grandchildren again. I can tell even with Bakura's history, that he has the potential to be a great father. So I wish them the best...

Lady Phoenix- wondering

2005-08-23T13:00:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. That is all I can do is wonder. Zahara is doing pretty well actually. She showed me the ultrasound pic of the twins. She is so excited and I am very happy for her. Bakura seems very excited about this as well. Though I have to wonder just what is on his mind about it lol. Something tells me it has something to do with the children tying Atem up. That would be an interesting sight. Yes- things will definitely get interesting once the twins are old enough to get moving. Bakura may find himself rethinking that large family he mentioned long before they had gotten married.

Sanura... The poor girl. In love with someone in love with a woman in his past. I am not saying he doesn't love her. I am certain he does. But there is one woman who haunts him. I can't say I blame him after hearing at least part of the story. It would be hard to forget something you were a witness too. I am not even going to try to pretend to understand. The closest experience I have that can be considered similar would be when I watched Atem being sealed in the puzzle... not just the first time either. But the second time as well. I do hope they are able to work things out. I hope it is for the best as well. They fit nicely together when they aren't fighting... It would be nice to see them finally happy together without the ghost, Malik, and Alexander standing in their way...

Atem- wow

2005-08-16T08:58:00.000-07:00

Well, it seems Yugi will no longer be my only grandchild anymore. As long as Zahara pulls through this. She is strong though. I have faith in her. And she has Bakura sitting by her side. He hasn't left the bedroom since Dorian came out to tell us what was going on with her and the child she was carrying. Well, I guess I mean children. According to Aurora, Zahara has 2 trying to form. No one has told Bakura this yet since he has not come out. Zahara does not even know. It will eb nice to see the little children. I missed out on so much when it came to watching my own children grow thanks to the Puzzle. But I can hopefully at least watch them this time through their parents. I won't raise them, but I will definitely see to it they have nothing but the best.

Well, I am going out to survey the damage. Dorian and Bryant said they would come with me while the girls waited to hear when Zahara awoke. I do pray that she awakens soon... And that the children will be okay...

Lady Phoenix- pins and needles

2005-08-16T08:21:00.000-07:00

Everyone is siting here waiting on pins and needles right now.

You would think we would be wondering where we were going to live since our home was destroyed last night... But it is the least of our worries... besides. Atem and I can rebuild that. I am not worried. However, I am worried for Zahara. She had been so confused yesterday. She was happy yet worried when she learned she was with child. But as a vision was revealed to me last night, she is actually with 2. But that is only if she remains in bed for a little while. When the house was destroyed, she was caught up in the event. The force of the explosion propelled her several feet back and even though Bakura tried to protect her, she still ended up with a stake in her leg and the jarring impact caused her an immense amount of pain. It is feard that the unborn child- sorry, children- took such a hit, there might not be a way for them to survive. But as long as they are careful things will work out just fine.

I have seen their children. Very cute. The son- will have Bakura's hair and Zahara's eyes. The daughter will have Bakura's eyes and a mixture of blonde and white hair... I think I may even have a picture... Here are a couple what what their daughter will look similar too...

And their son will look similar to this

They aren't even born yet and I am in love with them *smiles*. And only I know that this is only the beginning for them... Bastet has at least 2 others planned for those two... It should be interesting seeing Bakura as a father lol...

Atem- never again...

2005-08-13T20:08:00.000-07:00

If there is one thing I always hated it was being sealed in that blasted Puzzle... and thanks to RIJ skipping out I was sealed away again... Luckily Yugi was brought in to put it back together and I was returned to normal, but pissed is too Mild a term for what I felt. Too many things went wrong. First Kaiba nearly rapes Sanura and in a matter of minutes she loses the one she loves ... to himself... Long story short. RIJ is NOT on my good side right now... Not sure when he ever will be. His lies and walls forced her to do something drastic... Something she shouldn't have had to do... She used her magic to wipe her memory clean of him.

I just hope this all leads to something good for her... Eventually... That young Ishtar boy is decent enough- now that his Yami is no longer a problem anyway...

Lady Aurora

2005-08-12T10:15:00.000-07:00

Okay- I have been trying so hard to make sense out of things, I no longer know what is up and what is down. Things had been rather calm after I brought Atem back form the underworld. Believe me, Osiris was not happy at being beaten by his own game, but by rights, he could not claim what was not his. With the pwoer of my people flowing through Atem's veins- that made him on of my kind and that meant he had to remain to continue our charge to protect the world. Anyway...

He felt horrible at having to miss out on so much of our children's lives. We had a set of triplets while he was alive. Two daughters and a son. They have grown up marvelously and have each made wonderful lives for themselves. We all still get together. In fact that was when everything started happening.

Sanura, Zahara, and I met up with Blue and Ryou for our weekly group gathering usually to play a game of cards or something. The card game of choice this day was Cheat. I knew something was up when Bakura and RIJ showed up. RIJ is Blue's yami and he is typically not much of a social guy from what I have seen. Bakura seemed distracted... Of course that could have been because Zahara was playing some serious mind games with him. It was no secret to me that she had been hiding deep feeling for the thief. She did so out of respect for her father as they still have so much bad blood between them. What was also obvious to me was that those feelings were being returned. He was just uncertain to what extent. Sanura decided to push things over the edge as she was tired of the games. By this time RIJ had left them. He apparently had other things to take care of. Anyway- Sanura started a false fight and Bakura ended up in the middle of it. The tension was clearly evident between them- but not the angry kind. I recognized it as the same kind of passionate tension Atem and I had at first. (We still do - don't get me wrong- I am just speaking of Zahara right now lol)

Atem had arrived by then. He wasn't exactly thrilled with what he saw, but at the smile on his daughter's face he said nothing and just watched. I get the feeling if she had cried out just once in pain, Bakura would truly be no more. Anyway to make a long story short, there was a big tug of war for a little while but eventually Bakura and Zahara passed all their required tests and are now happily married. We are still waiting for them however to pick up their plane tickets to leave on thier honeymoon. In all the rush of the wedding day ( which started out as mass confusion, chaos, and mayhem but later turned out really beautiful), the tickets had been left on our counter.

Now we have another situation. RIJ had been extremely evil. He was destroyed twice by Zahara, once during her battle to lay claim to Bakura and again the night before their wedding. The second time though she took an added precaution. Just before he was sealed away, she used the last of her energy from the battle to purify his spirit and soul. Should he ever come back- he would be looking at a completely new self. And that was what we all so. More importantly, Sanura saw it.

She started seeing things about him that did not make sense. He would watch her intently, but never say anything to her. He would avoid all contact with her. She was never one to be ignored so she went after him. She had known exactly why, and their meetings usually turned dark, bitter, and destructive. He would say the harshest things to her and she would retailate with harsher things of her own. Atem and I knew it was only a matter of time before this turned into something more as well. And sure enough- we all landed at Blue's house to watch as the truth between them began to be revealed. The Elders had to get involoved in order to lift their spell over him so that he could be allowed to love again without endangering the life of the one he wanted. So now we watch and wait.

We just married off one daughter. It looks as though our other one will be headed that way as well... Tha is, unless Kaiba has his way and does not allow her time off to spend time with RIJ... That could become interesting...

Cerean Secrets

Sapphira

Sapphira: Vegas Baby! ^_^

Adair: worry...

Sapphira- Grrr....

Sapphira- Weddings

losing our minds?

Mistress of the Moon- Sapphira Raine- Hart

Aurora: Explosive changes...

Ra.. when will it end...

Sapphira's return....

What Luck...

A New Beginning...

LP: Writing just to write...

LP: An update... finally

LP: Returning to life...

Atem: Final note... just in case...

LP: The War has begun again...

LP: Home...

LP: Fear...

LP: On my own...

LP: Back in action...

Atem: Signs of promise...

Atem: Still here...

LP: Dreaming...

Atem: filling in...

LP: Broken Peace...

LP: Very confused...

LP: Surprise...

Been awhile...

LP: Gone again?

LP: Winds of Change..

Atem: Here again...

Atem: Baka Bakura....

LP: Shut out...

LP: confused again...

Merry Christmas!

LP...

LP: Proud...

LP: Decision...

Hikari: notice...

LP: Confused and Torn

LP: In shock....

Hikari: curious...

LP: Mourning...

LP: *sigh*

Hikari speaks her piece...

Atem: my turn...

LP: Fear the Worst

LP: Highly Amused....

LP: Should be interesting...

LP: Not sure...

LP: Worried

LP: Very confused...

LP: Unsure

Another Wedding...

LP: Quiet Hikari

LP: Could be a problem...

LP: Quick post..

LP:Our trip... Yes.. very interesting- Day by Day...

LP: Checking on...

LP: Time to go

LP: getting ready...

Atem: Company...

Lady Aurora- update

Atem: so when...

LP: A new chance...

Atem- yeah

Lady Phoenix- wondering

Atem- wow

Lady Phoenix- pins and needles

Atem- never again...

Lady Aurora

LP: sigh